Niquas Notes

morning @Appleblossom

good morning @Former-Member, thank you for the hugs , sending some hugs your way too

Thought I'd add another good morning to you in this thread, Niqua. Sending lots of love your way for today and every day. @Former-Member

I thought I would be so much more devastated than I am. Instead I feel strangely calm. I guess it hasn't sunk in yet. I am totally alone now. My own child was taking advantage of me. Now, I don't have to listen to the whining & I don't have to give them any more money - apart from waiting for them to stop paying the loan, I've decided that's their inheritance, when they stop paying I'll start - $200 a fortnight for the next 8 years. I kind of hope I end before the loan does, because if I end it's totally their responsibility - it's almost a good reason to end.

I should be devastated that my young dog brought down a wallaby & ended it, but again I was strangely calm, I stood over them & felt nothing except maybe pride. I'd like to see a human being bring down a wild animal without weapons, tools or hands. I think it made me feel safer in my own home, maybe not so alone. I'm a little angry with my local council, I was in the official off-lead dog area in town, that has not been mowed to the point the grass can tickle my nose. I was worried about snakes, but what were wallabies doing in there? I think perhaps the animal was already injured, this area is on a corner block, with a highway on one corner & a main road into town on the other; perhaps the animal was already injured, maybe it had been hit on the road. There were 2 of them, one lept up almost vertically before it took off, I think it was trying to draw my dog away from the other. My dog just stood still, maybe it was too sudden, he didn't know what to do; it was then the other moved, it was almost underneath my dog. I don't know if I'm trying to convince myself that he didn't neccessarily end it, or if I'm trying to convince myself that he did. Yet another place I can not take my dogs to walk.

Hi @Former-Member ive just caught up on this thread. I’m so sorry you’ve had such a horrendous time. As far as I can see or know perhaps making a stand will end up being the best thing you can do for your daughter and your relationship but I understand how incredibly painful it would be during the waiting to see what happens next phase. I’d like to hope that maybe she’ll realise that she has taken you for granted and at some point will make steps to reconcile in a healthier way for you both.

As far as the dog situation goes I can understand all your thoughts about this. I think perhaps just acknowledging that it happened and if you would have been able to see that situation first I know you would have stopped it. It sounds like a series of unfortunate events, perhaps just acknowledging that part will help you let go of it. I know what it’s like when they are baiting the forests. It used to put so much fear in me. A friend lost her dog that way. I hope you find somewhere safe to walk them, you so don’t need or deserve this stress as well at the moment.

My heart is breaking for you for the really rough time you are having just now. Thinking of you and sending hugs and crossing fingers something positive comes of it all. 💜🤗

Niqua, you may well be going through a grief process. It may have different stages. Strangely calm may be one of them.

With your dog and the wallaby, I tend to think we have creatures as pets but they are always a bit wild at heart. It's their nature. I hope and trust you will find somewhere better to walk them, maybe even going back to the empty property with the dam. You live in the outback. It would not be unusual for a dog to bring down a creature of a wild species. Again, natural for the environment you live in as I see it. Amazing it happened in the actual council approved area. But I know there are other places for you out there.

I too am so sorry you feel so completely alone now. I'm glad you feel that bit safer for seeing what your young dog can do, abilities it would also employ to protect you.

Like @Teej, I am hoping with fingers crossed that, with time, your child will return to you with a greater respect and sense of decency.

Love you, Niqua. @Former-Member

i dont have anything extra to say here @Former-Member but you have my support

Good Morning Mazy @Mazarita, Claire @outlander, @Teej , and everyone.