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I don't know what to do

BunniekinsSenior Contributor24 Dec 2017, 6:27 pm AEDT

I don't know what to do

I have this love hate relationship with my mania and voices etc. The only reason I stay on my medication is because of my children and I really don't want to get into trouble with the boys in blue which can so easily happen when you are manic .... I miss the highs which are so high, I miss some of my voices and I have to be very strong to stay in this real world when the other is so enticing and exciting compared to this reality.

My psychiatrist says to develop relationships with neighbours etc (which I have been doing) study (I have been trying), all I want to do is to float away. I dont want to be apart of this world this consumerist society to be a cog in a wheel of some corporation ,but if I stop taking my medication I will go mad again so I am caught in this no win situation where I cannot go forward because I hate what I see around me and will not go backward because I do not want to go mad again.

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Unknown userMember30 Dec 2017, 1:35 pm AEDT

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Well @Bunniekins that is better than you spending it at some bar in the hood!!!

Ok, we might organise fireworks at 9pm for you oldies!!! Then the young ones can have their's at midnight!

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor30 Dec 2017, 1:39 pm AEDT

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@Former-Member Hahahaha! Yes I dont want to be holding up the bar at midnight thank you! Early fireworks would be great I could tuck myself in all nice and cosy (depending on the weather). Funny fireworks always scared me as a child the loud sound and bright lights I never found to be fun or pretty the only thing I liked was sparkers.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor30 Dec 2017, 1:39 pm AEDT

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Fireworks at 9pm and midnight - got it @Bunniekins - will add that to the agenda for the night

...and then again at 12.30 (AEDT) for South Australia and 3am (AEDT) for WA ... might need to invest in some more fireworks lol

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Unknown userMember30 Dec 2017, 1:45 pm AEDT

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@BunniekinsI don't mind the fireworks, I just don't like being around people and worse drunk people. Have zero tolerance for drunk people in my face!!

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor30 Dec 2017, 1:52 pm AEDT

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@Former-Member so true. Drunk people are boring at best and aggressive at worst. I agree with you entirely.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor30 Dec 2017, 1:54 pm AEDT

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@Zoe7 you are a star!! How have you been? You alright?

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Zoe7Senior Contributor30 Dec 2017, 1:55 pm AEDT

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Not great atm @Bunniekins - but still here

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Unknown userMember30 Dec 2017, 1:57 pm AEDT

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thats right @Bunniekins. Pj's, cuppa and forum friends is my ideal New Years Party!!

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor30 Dec 2017, 2:18 pm AEDT

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@Former-Member Damn right!

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor30 Dec 2017, 2:21 pm AEDT

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@Zoe7 take care wont you xx

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