@utopia
its a fissous (soory dont know how to spell it )
circle.
them 2 drinks always turn into more.
ill tell ya a little storry about my hubby.
now he drinks every day. he doesnt think he is an alcoholic but he is. he drinks every single day of the year. no breaks. there has been a few nights here and there where he has had no beer and i can see he is suffering from withdrewals. (once again, spelling is fk). i can see it because i have been there. he get angry, starts shaking and he takes it out on all of us. now the only reason i know he is an alcoholic is because i was one myself. im still recovering myself. i will have one where i am angry and i will start drinking , (even at this stage of my recovery) and once i start , i cant stop. and ill do again the next day and then the next and i will continue to do it until i hit rock bottom. then i have to take meds to stop myself from drinking again. but back to my hubby....... i know he is an alcoholic, i can see it. he doesnt want to admit to it. he doesnt think he is . he thinks he is just a normal guy coming home from work and just having a few beers. he goes through 4 block of beer in a fortnight . on weekend he knocks them back like no tomorrow.
when i first starting giving up drinking , every time he came home from work i would have to stay in my room and sleep because i couldnt bere the thought of him drinking and not me. that happened for months. i would just go in my room. he didnt like it but thats all i could do just to pass the arge to drink. it was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life, giving up drinking.
now i can be around people that drink most of the time depending on my mood. and depending om my mood i slip up and drink. still. yes i still slip up. but now i get up the next day and start again. and i would go months again without drinking.
i am happy with what i have acheived . and im proud with i have acheived. im a better mum and wife because of it.
and i tell ya what
its nice not waking up with hang overs everyday.
sorry for the long story but i wish you all the best of giving up, if you choose to @utopia