Self Pity Party

Ill get back to here @Former-Member ive got to head to head to drs then ill be back. Keep tlaki g though. Talk girl talk here if you like. I do. Ive created a thread called ladies please . Feel free to write girl talk there. No boys will be there 💖 be back soon

Sinking into a big hole. Starting to get black thoughts.

Boom the self harming urgers are strong. It's doing my head in. I just want to breath.

Hi @Former-Member

I was just replying to your last message and saw you going through an awful time with your urges. You struggling to feel connected and relaxed and able to breath deeply?

@Former-Member
Hi, Just like any illness, Depression is an imbalance of Chemicals in the brain. These imbalanced Chemicals, cause many problems in our brain, & our body.
Just the same as if you put the wrong petrol in a car, the car will not work properly, or the way it would work if it had the correct petrol in it to make it move.
Our body is driven by our brain, & the choices we make in our mind/thinking.
Imbalanced Chemicals are going to send our thinking off track, our emotions are going to be all over the place, & our body part may start to show signs of being effected by all malfunctioning nerves & confusion, as the electrical currents get the wrong signals?
If you have an existing injury, or condition in your body it will be attacked first as its not as strong as the rest of your body. I get shocking body pain when depressed/stressed, as I have a lot of body damage from a serious accident I had. Also unbearable sinus pain, when upset/depressed, because my nose is broken.

I hope the way I explained what I know, is informative for you, & helps you?
I tried to describe it in a basic way, as I don't like complex myself?
Love & Hugs
Bella 🙂

@Former-Member I haven't breathed deeply since I was a kid lol. I'm non stop shallow breathing panic attack and I've been through many types of meditation through professionals to help me breath and I get worse so they are like wow we are not going back there.

Yes just zero connected to the world. I feel like an alien watching people. I had a customer Scream at us saying she's a doctor and I'm just like who cares what you are but it dose my head in people feel it's ok to look down at others. Like the words don't effect me at all. Call me what ever I'll laugh it off. It just upsets me black hearts live in this world. Dose that make sense?

Hey @outlander just my Bipolar. I cycle. Its just part of my illness. I can have nothing go wrong and have the best day and want to SH and be depressed.

@Former-Member thank you but I 100% understand how depression works. Not trying to be rude and I know your helping but the next person that try's to tell me how it works I'm going to scream at. I find it being talked down to like I'm an idiot. I even death stare my doctor when he goes on about the conversation of depression is like any illness that needs treatment. Look at asthma that have puffers nothing to be ashamed off so you shouldn't be ashamed. I'm just like shut up!

No ive never had physical injury as well so I doubt that theory isn't why we or myself feel pain. Thank you any way xxxx

@outlander just the same. I got a small week at work and I have organised to go out for drinks with girls from the work and now it's gotten really big and the mean girls are going so I'm going to get my hubby to sit at the bar next door so if I hate it I can escape and drink with him.

I've noticed my new medication is making me fat. It's like come on my head is a mess at least let me keep my body. Am I asking to much? Sometimes I think I might go back and study and creat pills for us that work with no weight gain and foggness. And also do liquid form for the ones that can't swallow tablets like me as breaking them tastes bad!!!!

And boom the depression is now hit black thoughts. I'm dimming mad I'm sad I'm every emotion except happy and I feel empty. I feel so empty and that's what's killing me the most! Hate it!