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STORMGRL101Senior Contributor
After another dissociation episode last week at my new psychologists office which ended up me going to hospital and staying a few days I just feel sooo depressed and scared. I really really want to end my life and tonight my care worker is coming to see me at home. I really want to be honest with her and show her my plan but I'm scared of what she will do or say. Im tired of this mess I'm sick of feeling this way 😭
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QueenieSenior Contributor
I hope you don't have to wait very long for your appointment either @STORMGRL101. If they are considering ECT as an option, I don't imagine it will be long.
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STORMGRL101Senior Contributor
they be better off without me 
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STORMGRL101Senior Contributor
i don't want to be here
it hurts too much
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Fancy_PantsSenior Contributor
Hi @STORMGRL101,
Please dont forget if you need to speak to someone immediately please call one of the helplines
Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat
Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling
Beyondblue: 1300 22 4636 or web chat
Or if you are in immediate danger call 000,
I saw you said you were stuck waiting for your appt which i cant imagine must feel so helpless and frustrating but it can help in the moment to talk it though
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STORMGRL101Senior Contributor
well its been 1 week since i went to hospital, been out for a couple of days
feeling so lost. i keep screaming out for help time and time again but nothing is being done to actually help me!
when is it time to stop trying?
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QueenieSenior Contributor
Hey @STORMGRL101, just seeing your post now. I take it the hospital admission didn't prove helpful at all? Did they discuss the idea of ECT with you at all?
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STORMGRL101Senior Contributor
@Queenie the hospital was good to have a rest but nothing happening so far in regards to ect. apparently ill find out monday what the plan is so im just trying to hold myself together until then.
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STORMGRL101Senior Contributor
im scared and desperate.
im going to write my gp a letter. appointment tomorrow morning.
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Writing can be very helpful @STORMGRL101 for ourselves and to say things that might be harder to do vocally.
DOnt give up.
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STORMGRL101Senior Contributor
thanks @Appleblossom
i dont know how tomorrow will go because i feel it is very likely i will become super distressed at my appointment and who knows what will happen im so anxious
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