I feel...

It seems it should not be so hard to live with others, but these kind of issues keep appearing in all our lives. Somehow we are all stressed and find it hard to absorb any more. Glad you are having some wins. @Queenie

Had a schizoaffective break that i'm recovering from, occured about 5 weeks ago.

On medication and still wake up in the middle of the night hearing the wind and noises, thinking that something is about to go terribly wrong... The feeling of paranoia is the worst. Get some mild residual hallucinations as well.

I just have to sit there and rationalise that its not real, but still the feeling persists. It really sucks.

Hope you're getting better, might be best to stay on the medication for awhile (even with the side effects)

Relating to this and various posts read today, gives both hope and much sadness 😕

alone as I don’t want to be an embarrassment from not being able to stop talking, or not being able to talk to anyone.. my past friends and family don’t need more in their life, and the years of absence, I see as best for all. Not 1/100th of who I use to be.. but alive and have my puppies to hang out with.. thanks all for posting your story..

@outlander Thank you for the welcome.. 🙂

i was about to do the auto response, yep all good, quickly followed by a return question to deflect from me....

today has a few good things that happened 🙂 yet to be 100% honest,

disapointed in myself for not doing the things or even really a thing I had set my mind to do thought about this all day and some of last night..

angery at myself for being sad, and seemingly useless at the most mediocre of “tasks”,

have so much I should be happy for, NOW. But can’t help but feel empty, numb and .....

well alone doesn’t really apply anymore, it is just life.

My fault in part by choosing to cut the world out to protect them from the “new” me..

saddened by potential opportunities that I know are going to missed, due to my MI.

and one of the weirdest things about those and many more feeling similar. I have accepted this may be just how it is..

dont get me wrong this is not a bad day, and not trying to complain, just thoughts I can not get out of my head.. reliving my saga is just how it is 😕

happy that the soccer and rugby on, that makes me smile.. 🙂 and REALLY happy that I have found this site. I think it may help me a lot over time.

@outlander Thank you for your offer 🙂 not sure if I can tell my full story, but yep for PTSD, throw in Bi-P prob 1&2, BPD, a form of agoraphobia, anxiety, depression and that is the easy list. All Drs disagree 😞 and so the put into the to hard basket most of the time....

it is is a good idea to do a little thing however it is so cold up here and all the puppies are warm now and asleep I don’t want to wake them by moving around our little place.

@outlander I took your advice and did something small (very long but small in the bigger pic) and started my story 🙂 thank you for the little push xx