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QueenieSenior Contributor

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I feel desperately lonely yet, I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I don't belong in the 'Normal' world because I am tarred with the brush of mental ill health, yet because I've sort of stabilised now, I don't belong with my former peers either. I feel beige, uncoloured and boring with no emotion really even though if I had to say anything it is gutted. I feel trapped in a world I don't want and didn't ask for, yet whenever I try and break the shackles of failure, I am thrust back into the dark and reminded yet again of my failures (my Father is a constant person to remind me). I feel alone, even in a crowded room. I feel unheard, even if I am screaming loudly.

I guess I am just searching for something and not sure what.

Does anyone else feel beige?

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outlanderSenior Contributor

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i agree with @Snowie youve done nothing wrong @Queenie

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QueenieSenior Contributor

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Thank you @Snowie and @outlander. She is being kind of strange about it when I try to talk to her now. I guess I have to pull up those big girl knickers and carry on. xx

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outlanderSenior Contributor

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Its her problem not yours @Queenie ❤

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SnowieSenior Contributor

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@Queenie yes we do have to carry on but in saying that you have a right to be treated with respect and kindness 💗💞💜

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outlanderSenior Contributor

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hope tomorrow goes well for you @Queenie

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QueenieSenior Contributor

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Thank you for remembering me @outlander. I checked in today and although there are two other people here, it is really really quiet. My mobile is out of range (the house is in a black spot) so I can't take calls or listen to music. The house has wifi, but it is the slowest speed. I'd forgotten how the quiet gives way to voices. Oh well hearing voices topic Tuesday tomorrow night as well as the recovery house's own hearing voices group tomorrow.

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SnowieSenior Contributor

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@Queenieglad you have settled in there. It does sound really quiet. Hoping the group goes well tomorrow.

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QueenieSenior Contributor

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Thanks for remembering me too @Snowie. I hope it's a good group. I'm not sure how many people regularly attend. Last time I came it was just me and the facilitator. I hope that's not the case tomorrow at least. I'll be popping in for Topic Tuesday tomorrow night, so I'll say goodnight now and talk tomorrow.

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SnowieSenior Contributor

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Good night @Queenie, I hope tomorrow goes well

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor

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Good Luck with group and the whole experience. @Queenie

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