I feel...

The drawings for the clip are really good.

I haven't listened to Robbie much nor that song, might just go have a listen!

I feel really bad. Asher is back and last night I hallucinated I was being terrorised by ghosts. I feel only half in the world so to speak. It is difficult to explain. I was awake most of the night and as such have spent most of the day asleep. I hate Asher but when I come to think I know in reality he is a figment of my mind, I hate myself. I'm so confuzzled and feel really low. I wanted to harm myself last night, but instead bawled for hours. I still feel like I want to harm myself, but probably won't because of the company I have here at home (I'll wind up homeless again as I'll get kicked out). I'm so frightened.

I went to therapy Tuesday night and she tried to hypnotise me but failed. She said I wasn't being receptive enough but that it was okay, she won't try again. I feel like Donnie Darko or something (when his therapist hypnotises him and thinks he's crazy). I don't want that to happen.

im not sure what i can say to help @Queenie but sitting with you and hearing how concerned you are

That sounds awful @Queenie I am sorry you are having such a hard time. do you have other supports that can help you?

Hello everyone, my anxiety and paranoia is out of control. My cousin (who'd walk over hot coals for) had a strange dream prophecising a death in the family. I am convinced she is talking about me and my suicidal feelings I've had of late. I have not spoken to ANYONE in RL about how I've been feeling in that regard (not even my therapist), so how does she know??

This is making me think people in RL have worked out who I am on here and have been reading it again. My Mrs said she doesn't come here anymore to read, as she respects my privacy. What the heck is going on???

hi @Queenie

could you possibly have your name changed on here for added peace of mind, or create a new account?

do you think your mrs would have told anyone else who you are on here?

@Queenie It is just a dream and dreams can have a variety of meanings. Dont worry Queenie. xxx Just take care of yourself.

@Bunniekinswell said

I don't necessarily want to change my name or create a new account @outlander. I like being Queenie on the boards, as I've always been some sort of Queen, Princess or Duchess online. Usually, I go under a really bland name these days so nobody would work out my secrets. Its not like I have anything to hide, far from it, but I don't want to stir up trouble in my family as everytime I indicate I'm not so well it causes hassles and upsets the applecart.

Perhaps it was just a dream @Bunniekins? Still... I feel rattled.