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QueenieSenior Contributor25 Sept 2017, 10:10 pm AEST

I feel...

I feel desperately lonely yet, I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I don't belong in the 'Normal' world because I am tarred with the brush of mental ill health, yet because I've sort of stabilised now, I don't belong with my former peers either. I feel beige, uncoloured and boring with no emotion really even though if I had to say anything it is gutted. I feel trapped in a world I don't want and didn't ask for, yet whenever I try and break the shackles of failure, I am thrust back into the dark and reminded yet again of my failures (my Father is a constant person to remind me). I feel alone, even in a crowded room. I feel unheard, even if I am screaming loudly.

I guess I am just searching for something and not sure what.

Does anyone else feel beige?

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SnowieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 8:42 pm AEST

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@Queenieyou are not rambling and are not being irrational at all. You have every right to feel this way and justifyably so.

No we don't choose this life, we don't choose to be like this. Whoever told you to get out of the slump is the one being irrational, not you. Is certainly does not help when people say unhelpful things like this. Even if people do not understand what we are going through, they can still be helpful by just saying "I hear you". We need to feel heard and validated.

Getting into therapy again sounds like a good idea. The housing situation does seem tough and puts more pressure on you, something you probably don't need right now.

I hope by getting your words out has helped a little

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QueenieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 8:49 pm AEST

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Thank you @Snowie and @Former-Member for making me feel and validated. I only have to put up with this for another hour before I can decide to go to bed without the million questions.

I guess tomorrow is another day (hopefully one that will be better). Putting my thoughts out there helps me to process what I am feeling and experiencing without verbalising them.

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Unknown userMember14 Apr 2018, 8:54 pm AEST

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I hope that tomorrow is better for you @Queenie ! I wish that you had your social network more available. Is there any chance of going for a catch up?
oh the 'get over it'... if we could.. we would. there are amazingly hurtful things that people say in their ignorance or indifference or spitefulness. 😞 hugs and hugs
I hope the next hour goes ok so you can go to bed soon, would some music in headphones be helpful?
take care

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SnowieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 8:59 pm AEST

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@Queenieif putting your thoughts out there help then keep doing it hun, am happy to listen to whatever you need to say.

Yes tomorrow is a new day, that is a great outlook to have

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QueenieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 9:00 pm AEST

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Currently listening to youtube clips in my headphones @Former-Member. I figure I'll keep doing that until bedtime.

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Unknown userMember14 Apr 2018, 9:03 pm AEST

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thats good @Queenie glad you've got that much space at least for now. are you watching/listening to music clips?

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SnowieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 9:07 pm AEST

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@Queenielove youtube

Hi @Former-Member

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QueenieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 9:13 pm AEST

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Currently just listening to music clips (Robbie of course, although I was listening to Coldplay earlier).

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SnowieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 9:18 pm AEST

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@Queenielove Coldplay too. My favourite song is Something just like this.

I have been listening to some Ed Sheeran tonight

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QueenieSenior Contributor14 Apr 2018, 9:22 pm AEST

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I actually really like the drawings for the clip to Something Just Like This.

At the moment I am listening to David's Song by Robbie. It is about his manager who had terminal cancer.

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