I feel...

@Queenieno need to apologise for not posting. You need to look after yourself first and that is fine. Perhaps the psychologist might just help to get some things out. I know there have been times where I feel better just talking to my psychologist and getting heard and justification.

I hope it goes well for you.

Thanks @Snowie. I am hoping to start therapy either this week or next week.

My Father just called me before from an unknown number. He was on the line less than five minutes but in that short time, he just made me feel so awful. I didn't know it was him otherwise I wouldn't have answered the phone. Now I just feel terrible. 😞

@Queenie hugs

To add insult to injury, I was contacted today on yet another number (all previously known numbers have been blocked) by my narcissistic ex-partner. This has raised my anxiety levels through the roof. Luckily I have my Mrs who knows there was no way I could've known it was her and is supporting me. I told her she had the wrong number and hung up and blocked her.

This has just triggered off all those yucky feelings I had when this person would use my own words against me and would carry on in a very passive-aggressive way. Because of her, I was put in all sorts of negative situations (including domestic violence and homelessness).

I feel like I need to keep looking over my shoulder right now.

@Queenie that is not good hopefully they dont contact you again and you can feel a bit more secure soon.

oh shite @Queenie well thats not what you needed right now is it! im so glad you have your mrs who understands. try to remember that you are safe now. you not homeless, and you have a lovely mrs and you are safe

I guess one positive thing has come out of her contacting me... to distract myself from these yucky anxious feelings, I got in and pulled out a mammoth study session and now have caught up on my assessments (except for the current unit). Not sure that I have the correct answers, but hey, at least I could get an A+ for effort (if only). I started studying at 8:15am this morning and have only now closed the learning portal for college. Not too shabby I guess... time for sleep now! G'night forumites!

good work @Queenie well done! goodnight

i hope tomorrows a better day for you

@outlander @Eden1919 @Snowie and everyone... I passed my assessments! I just logged into the learning portal now and discovered green boxes which mean they are complete and passed. Distraction techniques can sometimes be a good thing!