I feel...

I feel really anxious. I cannot explain it. I've come here tonight to distract. I feel like I am going to be sick. I'm just panicky and want to avoid everyone. I'm scared.

The museum was good. We are to use what we heard and saw at the museum for our assignment for college. Thing is not everything was there to answer our questions. I managed to submit one assignment today even though it is past the submission date. My lecturer I feel lost her patience with me a little because of the question I did not know how to answer (she never replied to the email). I feel so scared now of college. I don't want to go back, even though I know I have to. I apparently read the question wrong, therefore my answer was wrong. How am I supposed to answer a question if I don't have the information required? I feel let down. I'm freaking out. We start a new subject next week and I haven't even finished this one.

@Queenie

@Queenieglad your trip was good but sorry about the lecturer loosing abit of patience.

are you able to share the question here? and we can have a look at its interpretation?

I wish I could @outlander but it would give away my location, as the question pertains to the local area Indigenous language group. I don't think it would be allowed. So far I've sent an email to State Library which holds a lot of information relating to this language group. I hope to hear an answer in the next couple of days.

Every single time I log into the online learning portal for college, I panic. I can't stop it. I feel like I am a failure.

hopefully you can get some information quickly @Queenie your not failing, you are trying your best it and doesnt seem your lecturers want to be much help

Thank you @outlander and @Former-Member.

LJ, I hope tonight provides a restful sleep for you tonight. Sounds like it is more than deserved. Lack of sleep doesn't help at all with mental health (I know that from experience).

Outlander, thanks for the pep talk. I think I need reminding sometimes that I am enough. I've given my study a break for tonight. I will do more tomorrow morning while there is just me home. I've discovered my lecturer doesn't work every day (only the days we are in class, as this is the only course she teaches), so therefore only answers emails on those days. Kind of defeats the purpose, as it means I could get a faster response by asking her personally. We shall see though.