I feel...

no apologise neccessary @Queenie it sounds like a very rough day for you. i hope you manage to get some more sleep and wake up abit more refreshed tomorrow

also congrats on becomming CG!

Thanks @outlander

I'll probably take my night medications soon and then head off to the land of Nod (well that's the plan).

lets hope it pans out like that, ill probably be up for a long while yet so if you need to chat im here @Queenie

Thank you @outlander 🙂

Well forumites, it was a very trying day today. My Father dropped off the remainder of my belongings and then left with not so much as one word to me. All the way home I kept reiterating that I loved him and despite all the water under the bridge, I did want him in my life. He didn't even acknowledge I said anything. I feel totally devastated. I talked to my support worker today and will see her again tomorrow, it's just a horrible experience having to mourn the loss of someone who is still alive.

hugs @Queenie i really feel for you i hope that in time those scars on your heart will heal from this

xox

Thank you @outlander, I am sure in time the emotional scars will heal.

It is just a grief and loss journey I have to now embark upon. The hardest part was bringing all of my photos that were up at his house in from the rain where he left them. It wasn't a nice experience at all. I just don't understand what it was that I did so wrong. I really wanted to have another couple of sessions with my psychologist, but am not eligible for a new MHP until next year (I could never afford to pay for the sessions myself). I am sort of left professionally lingering.

oh @Queenie that is really terrible! im so sorry! you havent done anything wrong! i think your father has his own problems and he cant work them out himself. it has nothing to do with you and that was uncalled for, it really is.

hmm that is a problem isnt it.... can you try for another arrangemnet of some sort, a regular session with a helpline maybe?

I don't know @outlander. I honestly didn't know you could have 'sessions' with a helpline? All the helplines I've ever contacted like Lifeline, QLife and such stipulate it is not for ongoing counselling sessions. I am kind of stuck really. I am learning things at my Acceptance & Commitment therapy group, but it is more like a workshop, not really counselling or anything. I feel like I can't open up to my Mrs or anyone else about it really (except for here), as they run my Father down. I've always had respect for the Old Man, despite what he does to me and how I am treated. Warped senses I have, I know!