I feel...

Well, a blue blood supermoon is probably bound to play havoc with the ol' noggin @outlander. I see my GP on Friday for my injection so we'll see what happens.

Thanks for your message of congrats, much appreciated.

hello @Queenie @outlander

queenie....as for why or how ..what ..when..where ...whatever....enjoy that rush

excitement...pride...all of it...relish it....

you so deserve recognition for your achievement under such difficult situations that you have had to face...

well done...go queenie...you have so much to offer...am excited for you xx

I went to the GP early this morning for my fortnightly antipsychotic dosing (I have an injection as well as taking tablets every single day). I must say she wrote out a prescription for "something which will help me to slow down a little" as she noticed I couldn't sit still and was jabbering along a thousand miles per hour. Slow me down it did! I've been sleeping most of the day and still feel tired. It was only one tablet and I am not even sure what the heck it was, but it worked a trick! I have another week's worth of them if I start going up again tomorrow. She didn't want my mania getting the better of me this time around, especially as I expressed interest in sourcing illicit substances (something I haven't done in 12 years). She did express her annoyance at my psychiatrist in that he rarely returns her phone calls, despite her calling a number of times. I see my psychiatrist next month anyway.

It also seems I've changes GPs at the surgery. I used to see the same one as my Mrs, but now they have separated us. I'm not sure why. This particular GP I see now knows very little (seemingly) about schizoaffective disorder. It is kind of strange. I am going to ask to see my original GP next time and see what they say. They can't refuse me can they? I find my original GP more approachable too and she did all my paperwork for Centrelink and NDIS stuff. It kind of makes me paranoid really.... although that could just be me (after all paranoia is something my mind fuels itself on).

Well folks, I'm off to bed again. I had to change the sheets because our darling dog jumped onto it and did a wee... not happy but luckily it didn't go through to the mattress.

Anyhoo... nite! zzzzz.....

Does anyone feel like pictures are staring into their soul? I have this calendar of RW and I keep thinking it is looking at me, staring. In years gone by when I was floridly psychotic, I'd actually feel like (and do it) strike up a conversation with photos and pictures of people. It's kind of weird huh?

By the way... I'm still tired as and I haven't taken any more of those tablets to slow me down. I think I am slow enough.

@Queenie

I don't see anything odd in talking to pictures....I talk to mysel a lot....

does your depot injection normally slow you down and make you tired...I have read others say that on here..

if that is the case a new medication added would double the effect possibly...probably the outcome the doctor wanted...you have had quite a roller coaster ride going on and good that the doctor took precautions..

seeing someone new is a bit daunting to begin with when we have mental illness...perhaps see how she is next time...

I might be misunderstanding which is more than likely the case...sometimes I write responses and not send them...I have somehow created a language of my own..

so if you have a sleep debt banked up your body coul be close to fatigue..it takes many catch up hours to repay your sleep and feels exhausting...worth it...I went through that..

Be kind to queenie..you have achieved much in a short period of time...regenerate

take care

Hey, @Former-Member and thanks for your reply. I'm glad to know it's not so weird talking to pictures. I used to shut myself away and chatter away to them until the wee hours a few years ago. When I moved into my own unit, I used to have this really odd poster of Lady Gaga in which it looked like her eyes were following you across the room. People used to say how strange and cool it was. I used to talk to it. It helped put a face to my voices (not that I believe Lady Gaga is talking to me, but hey, it was just a face).

The injection doesn't normally make me feel tired. It usually gives me a headache for about a day. I've been, as you rightly say, on a rollercoaster lately. Time to get off the ride I think.

Woah what an epiphany I had on the other thread (going off alcohol thread). It's just not sitting right with me. I think I triggered myself. Damn!