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hello @Queenie @outlander

on top of everything else that you are going through...to feel that you are being spied upon would certainly increase your feelings of being unwell...

as you are a community guide....I believe that there are certain procedures in place to help keep you safe and provide support..

are you able to call sane and ask to speak to someone about your concerns...mention that you are a community guide....

do not feel guilty or that you have failed...

your feelings are valid and you are very valued for your hard efforts and compassion that you show others....

hold some of that compassion back for the time being for queenie...

I am trying to do the same for mohill...not as easy as I am trying to make it sound...understand...

i care about you queenie so please make the call...

I may not be able to answer ...I might miss your reply,,,,I am also not well....day by day at the moment..I will be taking some time away from the site within the next few weeks....

just letting you know that I am not ignoring you...just working hard at self care...

@Former-Member

sorry @outlander

did not mean to disclude you...

I have to focus so hard on every little thing as my head.....pressure cooker is at boiling point..

I have read somewhere that you too are struggling with other health issues on top of your daily strains..

please take care of outlander too...again I know far easier to say than do..

same to you...

have spoken to you many times in the past....have not ignored you just trying to help where I can...as do you

so outlander I care for you too....take care

oh @Former-Member i didnt think you were excluding me, i was actually showing support for you i dont have much to say really and sending a heart is a way that showing i care without knowing what to say

please keep looking after yourself, your worthy of such and we care, so if you need then tag me into your latest/updated thread whenever you need

@Former-Member, you always write well written and insightful replies so I must thank you for that.

I'll be emailing NikNik or Lauz on Wednesday about this snafu I find myself in. I am learning a lot about self-care at the moment in my course and although I am not as clever as I once was (thanks to brain mush), I do know that on reflection, I have not been handling this latest problem well at all. Taking a lot of self-care hours at present. I am re-attuning my life to Russ Harris and The Happiness Trap. Anybody read it before?

@outlander

Thecomment was more about my feeling.. All fine

@Queenie

you are handling this ..good to read about the self care at the forefront..

pleased that you will include sane for support and guidance...

yes I have the book read parts about four years ago..in storage with all of my other books that I am missing...

thank you queenie..you have given me an idea.

i was going to go to the library..might see if husband can take me to storage and I can get ome of my books..

take care

Uh Oh! I didn't sleep last night and I am finding my thoughts are racing.

I hope with all my being that I am not slipping into another mixed state. I hate mania!

uh oh @Queenie i hope not either! make sure you keep trying to sleep to prevent yourself quiker

It is kind of hard to ascertain whether my euphoric feeling is from passing my assignment or from a mixed state. I know being wide awake and chirpy after a night of no sleep is a major warning sign. Heck, maybe it's the full moon?

maybe its a mix of both @Queenie congrats on passing too!

and maybe it is the full moon - they say all us crazy people come out then 😉