I feel...

Voices are particularly distressing tonight. I am blasting music in my ears and I'm surviving on little sleep. I have been trying to keep calm and do some mindfulness meditation, but man it is so hard.

Rough night.

I did go for a walk earlier down the to the main road. Found a supermarket and walked around with the music blasting in my ears @outlander. The worker on tonight has been busy with another distressed guest, so I don't want to harass him. I tried to call my Mrs but she is busy watching a movie and can't be interrupted. I'm afraid I'll have to get through this one. I took my night meds ages ago but they haven't done a thing. Possibly I'm stressed? (I don't feel stressed here though). I keep on zoning out and if it wasn't for Grammarly correcting my mistakes, I wouldn't make any sense.

@Queenie

There will be a staff member on duty and as outlander said let them know that you are struggling,,they might sit with you for awhile,,reassure you..

they arê there to help you..

hope you have some peace tonight..

anyhoo focus on your surroundings..nice things in you room. Grounding. If you can

Hello @outlander and @Former-Member.

Today I braved the largest shopping centre in the region and kind of wished I didn't go. I got hopelessly lost and distressed and made a big fool of myself. Then I almost missed my stop on the bus and almost wound up in the city. I won't be doing that again anytime soon. I'm going home tomorrow so everything will be okay in familiar surroundings I think. I haven't been sleeping too well but I think it is because my caffeine intake has increased dramatically and it is keeping me awake.

My room is nice. I listened to some meditation music last night and tried to focus really hard, but Asher kept butting in which wasn't pleasant. I ended up doing the 5 things grounding technique over and over, trying to pick different things each time. I've come to the conclusion that Summertime is the source of major blips for me. There are the triggers of Christmas and my birthday, plus the hot weather affects my medication negatively. Once Summer cools off into Autumn, hopefully, I'll settle a little.

I feel invisible.

It is lonely feeling this way but it is for the best.

Hi @Queenie

I am around if you want a chat. I can understand that invisible feeling. feel that way at times myself and other times I wish I was invisible.

You are not alone, we are here for you

Hey @Former-Member. This is just about the only place I don't feel totally invisible in the world. I should be here more often.

I'm probably just stressing.

@QueenieOne thing I have learnt is we seem to stress about so many more things (well I do) but sometimes we cannot help it. You have got so much going on atm, it is ok to get stressed.

I am glad you don't feel invisible on here.