I feel...

@Queeniei really hope things work out for you and before the 12th, maybe with things going on though itll keep you occupied enough to hold off respite till the 12th

always sitting with you

I just told the Mrs I want to go on the 13th (the day after we get our car back from servicing) and stay until the Sunday. She replied I can't because the children will be here again. 😞 I beginning to loathe them! She also said, "why do you want to spend time away from me?". We ended up getting into an argument when I told her it wasn't about her.

@Queenie What you are suggesting is perfectly reasonable. Stay tough on this you need to do this to get your meds right which shouldnt have been messed with in the first place. Dont budge on this Queenie.

I wish I could explain things to the Mrs without it turning into WW3. This is often why I say nothing and in RL just constantly wear the mask until I crack up totally. She doesn't seem to understand that I go to respite to prevent going to the hospital. I'd rather spend 5 days in respite than a month in the hospital. My usual GP is back next Friday when I see her thankfully so we shall suss out our options.

@Queenie yes it is hard for people without an mi to understand all these things ... I know my ex is extremely remorseful about how he treated me when I was sick and we were still married.

Well the gp sounds like a plan ... not perfect but a plan at least.

I have to go and get my son to bed. Hope you sleep well Queenie. xx

Well, sigh... it has turned into a very one-sided WW3 here. I am thinking of packing my bags and getting a friend to pick me up and leaving.

I am really tired of always saying/doing/thinking the wrong thing all the effing time! So over it!

oh @Queenie im really feeling for you. sending lots of hugs. keep as safe as you can and if that means leaving with a friend then do so.

I just realised there is probably nowhere to go @outlander. The only person who could've picked me up is drinking already so can't drive and their place is in another town from me. I'd go to my cousin's but she is away on holidays... sigh.

What an effed up NYE this is turning out to be! 😞

just keep as safe as you can @Queenie maybe you could leave and then pick your mrs up later on? then you can get a breather as well

@Queenie

I have been following all of your responses..

I agree with Greenpea and outlander..

your health is top priority now....I am sure that Mrs means no harm..perhaps hyped with children and festivities,,

we make plans ahead..then circumstances change..

if you had a physical relapse there would be no question...physical illness.. Mental illness both need to be taken seriously...

get yourself off to a gp a sap... Some clinics may be open tomorrow..

better not to go anywhere tonight other than a medical facility..

tuck yourself into bed and reassure yourself that you are doing absolutely nothing wrong..

If you want to write brief note to mrs

red traffic light.. Serious...doctors to get into respite a sap..do not want to go through public system...too distressed to talk...love her and the children

New Year's Eve is another Sunday night..I am not too good and have to sleep..keep on talking to others on here as you need to..hope you get some sleep

I understand about masks and avoiding hospital...I now know if needed I have to do it..others in my life have to deal with it themselves if it bothers them...they are always grateful in the long run..