I feel...

The ghost has crashed back to Earth.

All it took was a Christmas movie where a Father tells his daughter he will always love her.

I don't think I'll ever hear those words.

Bah humbug. I'm over it all. To make matters worse, an ex-lover contacted me, someone who promised me the World and instead broke my heart. Just noticed her email. I opened it, I shouldn't have 😞

glaedelig jul!

aww hugs @Queenie im not sure what to say as struggling to find words for anything atm but will sit with you.

Thank you @outlander. Words are kind of escaping me too don't worry. I'm just mostly sitting here staring into space.

me too. ive managed to form some words tonight on my thread about abit of whats happening for me atm. i havent been online all day because i just couldnt be here, im still struggling to be here.

@Queenieso we can sit here staring into the abyss together.

can i ask why your ex contacted you all of a sudden or will that make you more upset

I'm not sure @outlander, it had an attachment of a picture of her. It was all in Danish. At first, I thought she sent it to me by mistake but she called me by a name she used to call me. It is a bit weird really. She was a psychiatric nurse in Denmark who I had an online relationship with. She was cheating on her husband with me and in the end, she went back to her real family. I only recognised some words. She promised me the world and my world fell apart when she stopped replying to me and Skyping me.

Just when I am happy with my Mrs, it is like she has to have a dig at me. I will never forgive her for what she did to me!

I'd never leave my Mrs @outlander. Not for anyone or anything. Our relationship means too much to me to f**k it all up over someone who doesn't deserve my time. It just annoys me and my thing with my Father, well he promised me he'd call... that was two weeks ago now. Nothing from him. I sent him a letter, registered mail yesterday. It was only a Christmas card. Let's see if he gets it...

https://youtu.be/r5yaoMjaAmE