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I feel desperately lonely yet, I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I don't belong in the 'Normal' world because I am tarred with the brush of mental ill health, yet because I've sort of stabilised now, I don't belong with my former peers either. I feel beige, uncoloured and boring with no emotion really even though if I had to say anything it is gutted. I feel trapped in a world I don't want and didn't ask for, yet whenever I try and break the shackles of failure, I am thrust back into the dark and reminded yet again of my failures (my Father is a constant person to remind me). I feel alone, even in a crowded room. I feel unheard, even if I am screaming loudly.

I guess I am just searching for something and not sure what.

Does anyone else feel beige?

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@Queenie how did it all go?

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@Queenie

The glue concept works well. I have found that I can hold myself together particularly when someone else needs me.

I ultimately realised that I could hold myself together when I need me too.

Stay strong lass. Luv n Hugzzz 💕🎶💕

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Hello lovely forumites!

I apologise for being away so long. I went away for a few days to the city with the Mrs and the free wifi in the hotel was down. It was very relaxing but now I am back to the grindstone so to speak. My time away from the pressures of everyday life allowed me to recover and regroup, so now I am back with full force. I ended up having the conversation with the Mrs that I needed to have, I inadvertently made her cry (which wasn't my intention at all). At least now we're both on the same page now.

My Mrs and I are having to do some major life changes, as her liver is playing up. This means no more Friday night drinks (not that we drink to excess anyway) and she is having to have sweeping changes to her medication for pain. I think we can do these life changes as to think they are to better ourselves.

The glue is holding me together @Kurra @outlander

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@Queenie

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Thanks for thinking of me @outlander . I found out a school friend passed away today from the big C. Certainly, puts my problems and issues in perspective as they pale in comparison to what she went through. I feel really guilty.

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im sorry to hear that @Queenie

im sorry i havent been here for you as id like to, i was in hospital and only got released this afternoon

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I really hope you are doing better @outlander . I'll admit I haven't been here much either as the wifi in the hotel we were staying in was down so I without internet properly.

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thats ok @Queenie id been wondering how you got on

did you do your romantic thing you had planned? its ok if you didnt

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Yes I did do the romantic thing. We went out for a romantic dinner @outlander and it was really nice 🙂

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thats great @Queenie sounds lik a really nice night

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