RE: Darkness surrounds me

@Faith-and-HopeMiss 12 has got dancing on today for about 4 hours. Where she has it today is about an hours drive away so not much point in coming home. So will stay over there and might try to find a coffee place I can visit to fill in some time.

That will pretty much be my day done!

You too @Faith-and-Hope, hope you enjoy your outing with D3

Morning my precious @Sans911.

Glad you got some sleep last night. Cat does seem very much "if I am awake, you can be awake" type of cat!! Hopefully he doesn't steal all your breaky

@Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 will speak later.

Petrol, chemist, lunch, dance in that order!! Will be back later on tonight.

Have a great day.

@Sans911,I don't think I could do my bra with one hand my hair I just comb through, my mother even though she's crippled puts her hair in a French roll and sets her hair with rollers.

Morning @Former-Member, @outlander

Did go for my walk this morning,need a big bubble to walk in to protect from triggers.Saw my young brumby friend and did do something that @Sans911 may not agree with and maybe it was wrong...You know the ex creep that told me in a txt last year to take my life.When I get severe bouts of depression like past few days it haunts me along with how violated I feel.Past few days I googled his name,(Facebook I blocked), found him on several dating sites which he had been on whilst pursuing me ,and he is now theoretically engaged/married and still on them.I know he lead a double life.So I texted him on my walk,my final txt and wanted to tell him I know he decieved me and that I regretted deeply not going to the Police when he threatened my life in that way.Didnt hold back, including the fact that he is a dirty old "creep" with a multiple personality disorder and if I ever felt ntimidated or threaten me again I would go to the Police no hesitation.Basically had to say it wasn't "ok"to treat me or any women that way.Said what I had to say as I know he preyed on my vulnerabilities with depression and loneliness.Told him I would delete the txt before reading if he replied.Havent heard from him.Also recommended him getting false teeth if he is going to look pathetic on dating sites!lol

I had to do it as it's a trigger for me during my bouts of depression,and not only a problem I'm dealing with but like the young 14 yr Olds that are taking their life over due to total b******.

Wow @Former-Member ..... that’s huge ..... ❣️ Woo-hoo .....

I hope it felt as empowering as it sounds. Good on you !!!

I know with a certain person who kept knocking me off my feet with controlling behaviours that I didn’t see coming, it left me feeling so angry and disempowered that I spent days depressed and tearful about it when my kids were young. I felt trapped, unable to do anything about it because that person was not only threatening to ruin my relationships if I took them on, I had no doubt that they would try .... and my life was so difficult just in the daily management of it, I didn’t feel like I had the stuffing to even try.

Then one day I decided enough was enough .... that I couldn’t keep living like this, and I was prepared to walk out on my relationships .... so there was no point not trying to corner this person and “sort them out”, if I was set to lose everything anyway ..... so I did !!

And they did try to ruin my relationships ..... and I made it clear to everyone that if my relationships didn’t hold up under this pressure then they weren’t worth it anyway .... because I wasn’t going to live under a bully any more ..... and if my relationships went down I wasn’t going to hold back as to why .... !!!

It was an awful time @Former-Member .... and it got ugly for a while .... but at least I had broken the hold that this person had over me ..... my mind space that they were invading .... and told them what I thought of them and the way they were behaving.

I hope If feels just as good for you .... and I hope that if he is in the process of bullying someone else, that they will be the one to read your text first, and take heed.