RE: Darkness surrounds me

@Former-Memberyour not a failure or weak. you are actually very strong and you dont realise it. why have you stuffed up? whats set it off?

Can you go walking today @Former-Member ? That’s my main mood stabiliser.

I don’t know about mood stabiliser meds ..... maybe they would be beneficial for you for a while ? Is that something your dr can prescribe, or is that pdoc territory ? Guessing that is a hard call for you.

Can you try calming teas from the health shop and see if they make a difference to managing mood ?

Music is another one of my go-to’s.

Have lost access to my friendship circle for now, so have to step up with other things instead.

Hugs Hon .... 💜💐💕🐠 ... keep swimming (walking) .....

Thanks @Holly24

Can't walk til tonight if that @Faith-and-Hope if it doesn't storm,car servicing day.Suppose to be a cool change and rain this afternoon.

I have had it @outlander,had a few triggers yesterday, mother and I argued in the car going to drs,she then accusers me of same old irrational thoughts including I'm the reason the family don't ring her and how I treat her which has gone on all my life.This brings on SC thoughts immediately .I then see people who have new cars,avoid people because of the shame I feel within myself.

I won't take antidepressants @Faith-and-Hope,they helped me wreck my life.There is no life there that is worth a antidepressant.I m hanging on but everyday I'm becoming more and more oblivious and a joke.

oh @Former-Member thats is really hard to hear but its not your fault. your mother i think is getting a mh issue with her aging it doesnt make it any easier to deal with though still hurts just as much.

We have got the cool change and rain happening here @Former-Member .... I’m not walking much until I’m feeling better again ... headachey today. Probably need my coffee .... I am late for it.

Hope your storms hold off so you can walk.

Hugs @Former-Member .... 💜💜💜

She's always had a issue @outlander,the niece rang her at 12 30 this morning,she thinks it's a drama,wakes me up and opens the door.I get up and close the door knowing it's no emergency and that my mother is overreacting She couldn't find a pen five minutes ago ,banged on doors to get my attention,I went out and found one in 5 seconds.When she comes out of the dr yesterday she has to interrupt the women at reception to talk about her health.You do need a lot of patience mentally and physically which I haven't got when she contributed greatly to my breakdown and low self worth all my life.

Just like you,wish I wasn't in this position and had my own life.thanks

hugs @Former-Member its really tough, but you are strong and i second what @Sans911 said earlier on