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RE: Darkness surrounds me
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member- just your presence here is enough and appreciated. I'm often thinking of my forum friends even when I'm not online and they know that. They're as real to me as I knew them face to face. So no offence taken. Often this forum gives us a safe space to share our feelings and emotions that we cannot share in our real lives. And I've found amazing support here from so many people. Because we all matter. Pain is pain, and everyone understands much of the pain we experience, even if they origins or source of that pain is different.
I've been reading how suicidal you've been feeling recently, and you're so not alone in the dark place. If you reach out, there are many hands to hold and comfort you until you find some light ahead to guide you. I've been in that space for an extremely long time, been in and out of hospitals so much. Today is day 5vfor me of no suicidal ideation. I'm not out the woods yet, but I definitely see a little light ahead.
I've been reading how suicidal you've been feeling recently, and you're so not alone in the dark place. If you reach out, there are many hands to hold and comfort you until you find some light ahead to guide you. I've been in that space for an extremely long time, been in and out of hospitals so much. Today is day 5vfor me of no suicidal ideation. I'm not out the woods yet, but I definitely see a little light ahead.
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I understand sleepless nights i hope that your meds are enough to take the edge of and give you a few hours of things not being so intense!
I has to do sleep CBT for awhile because my sleep just wasnt improving they got me to implment what she called a sleep hygine routine that i would start an hour before bed.
I have my only friend but i try not to lean on her so much as she has a child and works full times, the last thing she need is me adding to her life with this. I got my free sessions from the dr that start next month so that should help somewhat hopefully!
I has to do sleep CBT for awhile because my sleep just wasnt improving they got me to implment what she called a sleep hygine routine that i would start an hour before bed.
I have my only friend but i try not to lean on her so much as she has a child and works full times, the last thing she need is me adding to her life with this. I got my free sessions from the dr that start next month so that should help somewhat hopefully!
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member & @Former-Member - my meds are starting to have effect, so I'm going to log out now. I hope you both get a little rest or sleep during the night. Catch you tommorow. Stay safe 💜💛💜💛💙💛💛
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Unknown userMember
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@Sans911goodnight sweetie, sleep well and speak tomorrow
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Unknown userMember
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@Former-MemberI am glad you have your sessions coming up, hopefully you will be able to sort through those issues that you are struggling with.
My psychologist is probably the main reason I am still here today, so has been a blessing to me.
I have heard of a sleep hygine routine. It is good if it helps you sleep.
I can understand trying not to lean on friends. I have pushed so many away lately for not wanting to burden them with my problems and also because for a long time I thought that I should have been able to deal with this myself. I now know that I cannot do this myself, but besides my hubby, know one in my life knows what is going on.
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@Sans911 im sorry the battle has been so lomg and so intense for you, strength is something you dont know you have until you look back. I can relate to so much of what you were saying before about being scared of how long it will last. I know hospital is not ideal or nice place to be but i am glad you were able to make it through those horrid thoughts. I know you are not out of the woods compeletly yet glad you have some light.
@Former-Member @Sans911 i am going to have to go and try to wind down enough to sleep i am looking after a 5 yr old tomorrow so have to keep it together, sorry i am unable to sit with you both longer, but know i will be back to see how you are going:)
Thank you both for letting me join in with the conversation:)
Take care
@Former-Member @Sans911 i am going to have to go and try to wind down enough to sleep i am looking after a 5 yr old tomorrow so have to keep it together, sorry i am unable to sit with you both longer, but know i will be back to see how you are going:)
Thank you both for letting me join in with the conversation:)
Take care
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Unknown userMember
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@Former-Member it can be so hard when no one knows. I have done therapy before but i hope that being able to word vomit at someone for an hour will help, i alwaus get scared to be fully open as i have been placed on forms before.
I was angry for going back to therapy for a long time because i worked so hard to no longer be under local MH so hopefully these free session will help prevent me needing local MH again. Im sorry i have to leave you i wish i was able to stay, please know ill be here for you when i can. I hope the night isnt to long and can find some distractions. Take care
I was angry for going back to therapy for a long time because i worked so hard to no longer be under local MH so hopefully these free session will help prevent me needing local MH again. Im sorry i have to leave you i wish i was able to stay, please know ill be here for you when i can. I hope the night isnt to long and can find some distractions. Take care
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Unknown userMember
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@Former-Membernever be sorry hun for having to go and take care of yourself. You are extremely important 
Yes you do need sleep if you are looking after a 5 year old, they have a lot of energy!!
You can join in here or any conversation any time you like. I have liked chatting to you tonight and it has been lovely to get to know you a bit.
Take care 
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Unknown userMember
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Is anyone around?
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
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Hey @Former-Member still awake too!
