RE: Darkness surrounds me

@Sans911I hope things get easier as time goes on. Just going to look at each day as it comes. After midnight here now so made it through another day.

I know you know those thoughts I am having, you probably understand more than anyone else I know. They are just so intense sometimes that it is hard to think of anything else.

@Former-Memberyou are welcome to respond on any thread you like. Yes struggling alot but that is life atm. We can always hope for better.

How are you going tonight?

@Former-Memberdont worry, I think we have all typed and then deleted posts, I still do it all the time!

Sometimes words are not enough and that is ok. I just think that knowing that we are not the only ones who have these feelings help. I have read your posts and can relate to so much of what you are saying and I know that @Sans911 understands those thoughts and feelings too.

As much as I don't want others to go through it, it does comfort me knowing that I am not alone. These forums have become a bit of a life line for me and I hope in time you feel that way too.

Thank you for sitting with me

@Sans911I know you understand, that it what makes it so easy to talk to you. Because you understand without me having to go into detail and that is such a relief.

I don't blame you for being scared. I haven't hit that rock bottom yet, but do think that it is possible with everything happening, although I will try my hardest not to.

I hope with the support you have now and seeing a psychologist next week helps you keep away from that again. But it is about taking you life one moment at a time even though in the back of your head you are thinking how long will this last.

Give yourself come credit however, you are an extremely strong woman who has had to overcome so much in your life and even though rock bottom has occured, you are still here and that is what matters.

Thanks @Former-Member but please remember that we are here for you too.

I totally understand finding people in real life that understands us is such a struggle. I think that is why I express myself on here a lot easier than in real life.

Have taken meds for tonight but need to be careful with how much I take at the moment. I need to be awake in the morning for my children plus my meds are very carefully monitored now. So no, I don't think much sleep will happen, but we all have those nights at times.

Do you have much support in real life?