RE: Darkness surrounds me

@Former-Member:) It is funny my stomach is turning all jiggly apparently that is what is known as jiggly fat and it stays around for a few days then you get a whoosh and it has gone! Works for me!

@Bunniekinsyou have such a way with words!! Well if that works for you than go for it. Looks like those pants will fit you easily by winter!

@Former-Member Well I hope so. God I am tired will go for a cat nap. See you later NellBell xxx

Just read this page and It me a giggle - thanks for the laugh @Former-Member@Bunniekins, needed it right now.

Just popping in to say hi and hope your sleep has improved @Former-Member giving you a bit of a lift. Hope life was kinder to you today 💕

Hi @Former-Member, greenpea gives me good giggles.

I am ok, afternoon has been a bit rocky. Slept last night good so happy about that.

How are you going?

Hi @Former-Member - it was so good to read that you slept today and were feeling okay. Sleep does make such a difference in mood and coping.

Unfortunately today was not one of my best. I was hurt again badly by the friend in my life once again that I wrote about on the wailing wall that you kindly supported me through. I volunteer with her at the charity shop. I cried half the day - I will not be going back to allow for a third shot. I thought it could be worked out but I was wrong.

I don't think I can take many more hurts @Former-Member. I honestly always enter any relations with good will and a kind spirit and I have had a lot of bad will thrown back at me unprovoked. I grow tired of it and wonder why I bother. I grow so tired of the injustice. I am wondering if I will go back to my volunteer work at all now because of it - may find more volunteer work of a different nature in the future. As I like to have purpose just not back to the work I was doing. I will have to think on it - what's best to do when I am not so upset.

I just want to be happy and have people stop hurting me for no reason. I also need to find purpose - not sure what I can offer the world.

Sorry for the rant, having a bad day. I am thinking of meeting up with a friend at bingo tomorrow to cheer myself up again. I deserve a bit of fun and happiness I feel - as do you. Sorry @Former-Member, I know you are under a lot yourself and I wouldn't normally bother you, just really needed to talk to someone today. Thanks for listening. I hope you sleep well again tonight and tomorrow is another better day for you. Hugs 🤗 ❤️

@Former-Memberrant away if it helps. I do not mind listening. Sometimes a good rant clears our mind a bit to see some clarity in our hard times.

It is sad that the actions of someone else has hurt you and made you so upset. It seems wise not to go back there, but you should not have had to go through that in the first place. Unfortunately we cannot control what others say and do, I wish we could sometimes.

You deserve to be happy and not have people hurt you. Meeting up with a friend sounds nice and yes you do deserve a bit of fun and happiness in your life.

@Former-Memberyou are not bothering me at all. Today has been a little shaky but I will continue to use my coping strategies.

The Dalai Lama said "The purpose of our lives is to be happy". So I say do what makes you happy. If that is meeting with a friend do it, if that is sitting in a garden having a tea do it. Even though we are going through some big challenges in our lives doesn't mean we cannot have those moments of happiness. And that is purpose.

Sending tender hugs to you and wishing you some happy moments tomorrow

Thank you @Former-Member for such wise advice - "do what makes you happy". For so long in my life it has been give, give, give with me which honestly I don't mind at all and never look for anything in return. I like to make others happy; but getting slapped in the face for it is another thing (being unappreciated).

I truly believe I forgot myself in the process of giving - so I like what you said about doing things that make us happy - even just moments, as I do have big struggles - finding moments of happiness in this to savour. So I am going to set aside a bit of time for me now and do what I enjoy at times without guilt now. I will go to bingo tomorrow and have some fun - and you never know I may just win to boot :money_mouth_face:😅

Thanks @Former-Member for supporting me once again - this has helped me a lot to not let what happened today continue to get bring me down. I have moments of happiness to pursue now and I hope your tomorrows are full of them xxxxx❤️

Hi @Former-Member

you have a lovely attitude, I'm sure there is some karma headed your way.

SP

Thank you @SleepyPanda 😊