RE: Darkness surrounds me

@Former-Member Hi NellBell! Feeling really tired today. Hope you are well and feeling okayish.

Hi @Sans911 and @outlander hope you both are doing okay as well. I am in desperate need of a sugar fix.

Hi @Bubbles3 hope today is ok and not too hot over there

@Bunniekinsamy reason wy you are so tired?

@outlanderhow did work go?

@Former-Member The heat NellBell the heat 😞 .... not from getting up to mischief just needing an air cooler. I need some sugar I will nag at my daughter to go down the road an buy chocolate.

@Sans911I know you will understand this. I hope/pray that this is not triggering for you. I am SO SORRY if it is

So the other day I got an email from my work about cleaning out my desk. Yesterday morning hubby went in and collected all my things (yep there was a lot) and brought it home. At first I said I would go in but changed my mind quickly. The thought of going near work made me have a panic attack and you can gather what I did to myself. I know it had to be done but it has hit me so hard.

Reality has set in. Something that I loved to do I cannot do now because of my fkn mental illness. I am so upset at myself, others, the world because that is who I was. I guess having my things there made me think, ok I have just taken some time off, I will go back soon. But now, it is like I was never there.

I know it is just a desk, but it means so much more than that. It means that this is real, I can't do what I love, and there is nothing left.

@Bunniekinsair con and chocolate fix everything in the heat!! Maybe a nice cool drink too

@Bubbles3I am glad things are getting a bit better. Laying in bed sounds so nice.

I am ok, just going through a rough patch atm