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RE: Darkness surrounds me
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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It does this morning ..... thanks 😏
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Coffee out somewhere is my motivation to walk @Former-Member.
And it gets me away from where mr. f&h's e.d. behaviours are. It's so hard to live with them, knowing that they are the behaviours of an untreated mi ..... feels like enabling to be within their orbit.
And it gets me away from where mr. f&h's e.d. behaviours are. It's so hard to live with them, knowing that they are the behaviours of an untreated mi ..... feels like enabling to be within their orbit.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member
. Morning. Wish I was there to weigh in on your conversation last night. I fell asleep very early. I slept a long time but a restless sleep. So Ive woken up quite tired. Maybe I'll sleep away some hours today.
I'm glad you're still here @Former-Member. I like having you around. But I worry about the level of support you have. Or don't have. You definitely need people who you can trust, and who 'get' you.
My GP knows about my SI & that I SH frequently & while she doesn't support it, she understands. Hence I see her weekly as a check in & support. My old mh case manager was good too, but I feel let down & abandoned by her. Now I have a completely new mh case manager to get used to. And soon a new pyschologist. Trusting new people is very trying for me too.
My suicide prevention counsellor is probably one of the best mh clinicians I've ever seen. She is gentle, kind and genuinely cares.
Be kind on yourself @Former-Member. You didn't ask for all these problems, and you certainly are to blame for them.
. Morning. Wish I was there to weigh in on your conversation last night. I fell asleep very early. I slept a long time but a restless sleep. So Ive woken up quite tired. Maybe I'll sleep away some hours today.
I'm glad you're still here @Former-Member. I like having you around. But I worry about the level of support you have. Or don't have. You definitely need people who you can trust, and who 'get' you.
My GP knows about my SI & that I SH frequently & while she doesn't support it, she understands. Hence I see her weekly as a check in & support. My old mh case manager was good too, but I feel let down & abandoned by her. Now I have a completely new mh case manager to get used to. And soon a new pyschologist. Trusting new people is very trying for me too.
My suicide prevention counsellor is probably one of the best mh clinicians I've ever seen. She is gentle, kind and genuinely cares.
Be kind on yourself @Former-Member. You didn't ask for all these problems, and you certainly are to blame for them.
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Unknown userMember
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I think we all need some time out at times. You probably need it more than others. Must be extremely hard with an untrated mi... as well as trying to keep the family unit running as normal as possible.
I hope @Faith-and-Hope that you have support around you, on here and irl 
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Unknown userMember
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@Sans911
Glad you got some sleep last night even if it was restless. A sleep today sounds good.
I slept very soundly last night, woke early and feel back to sleep for a bit. Still groggy now bit spaced out. I guess you know why
My psych is great but I guess he is limited in what he can offer. I just get so furstrated at how slow things move. I really don't think my pdoc cares or if he does, he has a funny way of showing it.
Hopefully it is not much longer until you can start work with a psych. Gald you have your gp and suicide preventition cousellor who are good supports for you.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Morning @Sans911 ..... 👋 💕
I do have support on here, and socially irl @Former-Member, but not yet the medical support. I was seeing a psychologist intermittently, but that is really nothing more than venting, because there is nothing he can do or suggest to resolve our situation any better than what I am already doing. I know he would offer emotional support if I left, but that would be a different type of disaster, especially with our kids now fragile in the middle.
It will take a dx to get proper support, and that involves running a gauntlet myself, as recent events have demonstrated. When I have reached out for help I have not been believed. That may be changing, but it's still early days and it's all as clear as mud at the moment.
The support receive on the forums isnmy emotional lifeline.
I do have support on here, and socially irl @Former-Member, but not yet the medical support. I was seeing a psychologist intermittently, but that is really nothing more than venting, because there is nothing he can do or suggest to resolve our situation any better than what I am already doing. I know he would offer emotional support if I left, but that would be a different type of disaster, especially with our kids now fragile in the middle.
It will take a dx to get proper support, and that involves running a gauntlet myself, as recent events have demonstrated. When I have reached out for help I have not been believed. That may be changing, but it's still early days and it's all as clear as mud at the moment.
The support receive on the forums isnmy emotional lifeline.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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I agree with @Former-Member ..... 💕
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Unknown userMember
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@Faith-and-HopeI am glad you have support around you. Hopefully you can have the proper support around you once you get a dx, however I know that may be a long wat of yet..
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Im glad your still here too @Former-Member ❤❤
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Unknown userMember
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@outlanderI am going to reply on here.
Hugs hun, hopefully today you can go a bit easy today. I was going to sleep last night and saw that message. Just another thing I can't do right. I am not staying on here today, might come back on later tonight, see how I go, but I cannot deal with having to defend myself, I have enough to worry about.
Ended up taking a fair bit last night. In the end, didn't really care.
Will check emails so if you need me tag me. I will always be there for you and a few others
