RE: Darkness surrounds me

@Faith-and-Hopethe GP I don't really care about, I have pulled back seeing her. As I said mainly for work cover purposes.

Pdoc - guess I could. I went to him because my psychologist recommended him. (Not sure if psych is regretting that!) My psych works well for me b/c I see him every week and have check in's throughout the week. I trust him and have a very good relationship with him (in a professional way of course). But it has taken a long time for me to trust him and he still doesn't know everything.

B/c I only see the pdoc once every 2-3 weeks, I do not have the same trust with him so I donlt think it would matter who my pdoc is. It will probably take me months and months to be able to open up. I hope that makes sense.

It does make sense @Former-Member. And yes, I understand that it will take time.

I am so p*nchdr*nk from how much time it has taken for our situation, and I can’t even consider the future at the moment. I have absolutely no idea where all this is taking us. I just feel so powerless .... and I don’t think leaving with everything that would bring on is the answer, or I would have done that long before now.

All any of us can do really is take each day as it comes.

@Faith-and-HopeI feel for you hun. It is such a difficult time especially for you as you said, you feel so powerless. We can just take it day by day and hope that one day things will improve.

I feel like if I change pdoc now, i would have to start all over again. I don't think I could do that

I understand that too @Former-Member .... but relocating for us means starting again with new counsellors ..... can’t even think about it ..... and that’s with all our muddle and no dx for mr. yet ....

Thats a big part of the inertia I am feeling at the moment ..... just don’t know how to do this and everything seems awash ..... but if I just keep going something will clear ....

@Faith-and-Hopethat must be so very difficult for you. To start all over again will be extremely difficult.

I hope that it is not the case for your sake, but realise you have little control over that. I just hope that is does get better for you

Morning all. Somehow still here. Hope you are all well today.

Thats all I got.

Thanks for checking in @Former-Member .... 💜

Its good to see you.

@Faith-and-Hopegood morning sweetheart, hope you are well. Sorry fell asleep last night without saying goodnight to you

Coffee yet?

Always start my day with coffee but always at home.

Whinge away hun if it helps....