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RE: Darkness surrounds me
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Thanks @Sans911 Just annoyed that some of the meds will take ages to work. Like I knew that was the case before hand but for him to actually say those words were hard to take in.
Also confirmed diagnosis that the psychologist said and have to go get bloods and ECG just to check that everything is ok there.
I will reach out if I need to ❤❤
How was your conference today?
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Couldnt have said it better myself @Sans911
@Former-Member big lil sis hugs to you. Im proud of you for going today. It wasnt easy esp during the waiting room time but you got through it and i hope the tablets that work straight away actually help ❤❤
@Former-Member big lil sis hugs to you. Im proud of you for going today. It wasnt easy esp during the waiting room time but you got through it and i hope the tablets that work straight away actually help ❤❤
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@outlanderthanks sis, was hard in that waiting room, especially with that radio!! I did tell his secretary is probably wasn;t the best station!!
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member I've been on ads for 3 weeks now, and I think they're just starting to work. Hard to say though. But I've been able to be a little more stable & my lows seemed to have lifted a little. It's frustrating though; I get that.
Thanks for asking about the conference. I've been busting with excitement about it since I left earlier today. I actually ran into a young woman who I did DBT with earlier in the year before the conference started, so it was lovely to catch up with her, but also to have someone to share the day with. I wish I could be more specific about the conference because it's so important and relevant to myself and lots of people with mental health issues, particularly certain diagnoses. That's all I can say without giving it away. But I found it really helpful as there was a wide range of people attending & presenting, from consumers, carers, clinicians and even members of parliament. The conference goals are to increase awareness, reduce stigma and to increase better provision of effective services. I've currently on a wait list for a public psychologist which is almost a 4months wait. So I was definitely interested in many aspects of the conference. I took some information away that I will share with my GP and case manager, which I hope they find useful.
Thanks for asking about the conference. I've been busting with excitement about it since I left earlier today. I actually ran into a young woman who I did DBT with earlier in the year before the conference started, so it was lovely to catch up with her, but also to have someone to share the day with. I wish I could be more specific about the conference because it's so important and relevant to myself and lots of people with mental health issues, particularly certain diagnoses. That's all I can say without giving it away. But I found it really helpful as there was a wide range of people attending & presenting, from consumers, carers, clinicians and even members of parliament. The conference goals are to increase awareness, reduce stigma and to increase better provision of effective services. I've currently on a wait list for a public psychologist which is almost a 4months wait. So I was definitely interested in many aspects of the conference. I took some information away that I will share with my GP and case manager, which I hope they find useful.
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Wow @Sans911 sounds like it was an amazing day. Yea, shame you can't be more specific but rules are rules! Sounds like you got a great deal out of it which is wonderful for you and also to help your GP and case worker.
I think it is so important to increase the services. It is just wrong that you have to wait that long. I am just lucky that mine is covered by workcover or else I would be on a waiting list too.
I think you are one of the most courageous people I have meet @Sans911 . With your MI you could have just curled up in a corner and given up, but instead you are trying to help yourself, educate yourself and help other people. Not many people would do that. You should be super proud of yourself.
I am so happy for you that it was such a positive experience for you. 💛❤💛❤
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member there have been many, many times I have curled up in a corner! Particularly during hospital admissions. I've been known to drag my pillow and blanket & lay on the cool, dark floor of the bathroom just to have darkness and quiet. The nurses & docs think I'm quite mad!
But I've never been able to break down, and let myself 'go' and fall apart. Which I would love to do. And I've given up at times too, and had multiple SA. But each time I'm discriminated against, treated poorly by other health professionals makes me determined to prove them wrong. And I do want to live, but not with this level of pain & distress. I've gone as low as I can go, so it's only up from here. I will find a way back. And I will reach out my hand & heart for others suffering too and pull them back up with me.
But I've never been able to break down, and let myself 'go' and fall apart. Which I would love to do. And I've given up at times too, and had multiple SA. But each time I'm discriminated against, treated poorly by other health professionals makes me determined to prove them wrong. And I do want to live, but not with this level of pain & distress. I've gone as low as I can go, so it's only up from here. I will find a way back. And I will reach out my hand & heart for others suffering too and pull them back up with me.
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@Sans911 that last paragraph proves that you are courageous. I cannot for one minute understand your level of pain and distress but I can be there to help pull you back up just like you do for me and so many other people. I'm sorry you have been at that point of SA, I wouldn't wish that on any one, but I am glad you are here to prove them wrong.
You are a kind and compassionate person @Sans911 and I am going to keep telling you that!!
💗💗💗💗
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member @outlander everyone has their own experiences of mental illness, and we each have distressing moments and levels of coping. While we can say we understand how that feels, no one but that individual knows what it feels like. That's meant to be an observation, not a criticism by the way. I don't wish for anyone to have suicidal thoughts or not wanting to live either; it's a horrible place to be. Yet I live with chronic SI/SH issues, so finding reasons to live each day and find meaning & purpose is so important and necessary.
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Ok, I think this new med is kicking in. Getting very blurry!
@Sans911 Goodnight, thanks for being you and being there for me
@outlander Sweet dreams sis, I hope you are asleep by now
@Faith-and-Hope because I know you are never too far away always making me feel safe, goodnight hope you can sleep even worrying about a special friend of yours
i am hoping I don't end up back on here until tomorrow morning. I can only wish. 😴😴😴😴💤💤💤🛌🛌🛌
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member yay, sleepy time ⌚. Goodnight my lovely. I hope you have some restful sleep. I'm heading off too. Talk to you tommorrow
