RE: Darkness surrounds me

Hi @outlander,

I don't want to take away from the discussion flow here - but did want to quickly jump in and say that I think you handled this really really well. I hope you feel better today and if you have any questions, just send through an email to me or Nik here: team@sane.org

Hi @Former-Member
I was in such a panic last night. I couldnt get onto my computer which is what made it worse otherwise couldve edited it very quickly.
But thank you. I might just flick an email through now though whilr im taking a break

@Former-Member I've heard you're not so not good this morning. Is everything ok?

@Former-Member I'm really pleased to hear your safety plan is working. Gosh, it's really hard for you right now isn't it with these new flashbacks? How are you now? Are you safe?

I went back to sleep for just under 2 hours, but I woke with such a start as I thought it was much, much later, but it was before 8am. It was quite cold last night too, which didn't help, and I've packed up my blankets of course. And I had a killer headache, which I had all night, but ramped up after I went back to sleep. It's settling now with pain relief.

I'm back in bed with a coffee and breakfast, which the cat always shares with me. Naughty I know but he's so damn cute, I can't help spoiling him. Most of the time I have cereal for breakfast with fruit & yoghurt. He dips his paw into the yoghurt (or milk) and then licks it. He was a rascal during the night as he got into the recycling bag and ripped into it. So there's paper everywhere.

I've another half an hour or so before I need to get up for a shower and get ready, so I'm here for a chat if you want.

@Former-Member I've only had my cat about 3 months so his character is still developing as he gets used to me (and my house mate). He's so interesting & annoying- sometimes at the same time! I think he's a bit bored this morning as he's running around, then meows loudly, and comes back to me for a nose rub or head scratch. He does have many toys, which he's a bit rough with at times and wrecks them, but he has a short attention (he sounds like a typical male, right? 😀).

He loves sitting on the window ledge, and will often sit there for ages watching for birds outside. At night time when the blinds are closed, all I see is his grey tail hanging out. His other favourite spot is my tallboy, which faces the front garden windows, and again, he stays there for a long time. I could talk about him all day, but I'd probably bore you to tears.

I had 2cats previously, both black and unrelated, and they were put to eternal sleep after short illnesses. I was overseas at the time, and my mother was caring for them, so she had the terrible job of taking them to the vet within a year of each other. I was devastated, and griefed for a long time. It's been about 6 and 7years since they've gone, and only because I've settled a little have I felt comfortable getting another cat.

@Former-Member unfortunately I have to drag myself out of this comfortable bed, and get in the shower. I know you're doing it tough again today, but I hope you've enjoyed my subtle distraction (did you even realise that's what I was doing?).

Please look after yourself & take care ok. I'll be back later this afternoon.