RE: Darkness surrounds me

@Sans911yes I can repost it, I just want to make sure @outlander is ok first. I think we both need to just relax. My heart is just about to beat out of my chest and and anxiety has gone sky high. I am usre @outlander is probably feeling a bit stressed too.

Hi @outlander you are better off talking to Nik Nik as she is the manager and will know what to say/do

haha @outlander you didn;t set it off sis, it was already sky high anyway

ok here it is

@Sans911@outlander@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member

So went and saw the psychiatrist for the first time today. His office was about an hour away. Was anxious before hand but I guess that was to be expected. It went for about an hour and a half and was really stressful. He asked a lot of question about all the traumas (no details of them), my daily life, my history, my moods, like I mean everything. For someone that struggles to open up to anyone, I was proud of myself that I did open up and that I got through it without having a panic attack

So have been placed on 3 different meds for depression, psychosis and sleep. The good thing is the sleep one will work straight away, the bad thing is the other two can take 4 weeks to see the full effects That makes me really anxious and stressed that I am going to have to wait a long time to see the full effects of these meds. I did tell him that I am really struggling now and not sure if I can last another 4 weeks for these meds to start. So a plan has been put in place to help me with that and he is going to consult with my psychologist and CAT team to make sure I can be as safe as possible. Don't know if it will help but I will at least try. So I have to wait another 3 weeks to see him as he had no earlier apps. avaliable.

So emotionally it was exhausting. I am just trying to control all my feelings at the moment as I still feel very anxious and unsettled. Just talking about my traumas without even going into any details, have stirred up a number of flashbacks this afternoon. Took me a long time to drive home because I had to pull over twice just to gain control of myself back. I am hoping tonight I can keep control of everything, only time will tell I guess.