fear of failing

I am worried and anxious every day that I will fail at life

I know I'm only young but I seriously feel like I will become a laughing stock of everyone... then everyone will say "i told you so"

I am sick of being so alone all the time.. I struggle to socialise... even though I know I can do it... Peoeple treat me different because I'm too tall...

I can't handle people anymore with their silly problems... people just abandon me and think I'm being rude or something... but I'm not... I'm just sick of stupid people and I'm also anxious...

I have no idea what to do with my life at all..

Every weekend is horrible. I have nothing to do except be on my own.

Rarely do things get organised and happen... I have nothing else to live for...

I have no proper job because my university timetable is terribly organised (beyond my control) and I have no money left... I feel like a loser who still depends on his parents for support...

I'm sick of medication...

If nothing gets offered to me at the end of the year (highly likely) then I'm going to end it.

I can't handle living like this..