@Former-Member
I think it is fear that sometimes let us think we could be fated to be bad or evil. I have never found any of your posts bad. I like the sciencey intelligent side of you too We all do lots of different things and some might be better than others. One of my worst disclosures was an assignment in HSC where we had to long autobiographical piece. I felt I had given my soul up on a platter and the simple mark on my paper was not enough recognition. I could not stay in the class that night and stayed away the next week, but in the end I never discussed the content but realised my teacher respected me.
Sometimes when we are analytical we are not as good at managing emotional things maybe that is the case with you too, but dont over blow it to thinking you are evil or scum.
That said I regularly go into a negative on self spout. I seem to have to get it out and then get on being the averagely alright person. I used to think I was monster all sorts of things. At least I have come a long since those days.
I think all the responses on this thread have been great, in the ideas department and in the affirmation of you as a person. @Former-Member Please dont compare yourself to others at uni, Maybe the lecturers are overwhelmed and out of their depth, but dont take lack of response as necessarily a bad reflection of you. . No-one else can take the place of you. Self worth is a peculiar thing. Try and find a little space in your heart to nurture you in all your knowledge of yourself. Give yourself the love you need.
Even if you have made a few mistakes, everybody has, try and do better next time.
I had a lot of problem with the evil word as my mother was delusional and religious and thought I was evil. It was not true but it was hard to get over. You arent either.
Gentleigh Bentleigh. Hold your soul with kindness.
