MDTSenior Contributor
sick of this sh*t
wasting my time is something i am really good at
i hate myself
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sick of this sh*t
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soulSenior Contributor
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Hearing you @MDT. Hope you start feeling better soon.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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thanks @soul
i just dunno what to do
i just dunno what to do
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soulSenior Contributor
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Things will get better @MDT. I know it's difficult to believe right now but they will.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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im holding out for psyc in 45mins....
so exhausted
so exhausted
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soulSenior Contributor
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How are you doing @MDT?
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@MDT ❤❤
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soulSenior Contributor
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Had problems loading the Sane threads last night @MDT. Just checking in to see if you're okay.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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hey
psych was helpful
i made the point that i have to be the one to implement all the strategies and things that i have learned... doesnt matter how many appointments i make because this is still the case..
i am still a little depressed at the moment and ive only just gotten up but i just accept that and get on with whats gotta be done...
it' exhausting
i was able to narrow down all the areas that give me grief in life which i dir the other day..
whats happening next year is a big part of it
money is too
and so is my social life..
this is why i want a grad offer badly but i have to act as if i wont be... im really anxious about it
but i need to try and focus on the negative thinking and defuse it from emotion.. by challenging it..
none of this is new to me but i just need to do nore of it
its really hard atm because im just about convinced my life is pointless.. then i end up in suicidal ideation.. defusion will help with that i think..
gotta take it easy both physically and emotionally
also spoke about how meaning in life doesnt mean you are happy all the time.. an important distinction
psych was helpful
i made the point that i have to be the one to implement all the strategies and things that i have learned... doesnt matter how many appointments i make because this is still the case..
i am still a little depressed at the moment and ive only just gotten up but i just accept that and get on with whats gotta be done...
it' exhausting
i was able to narrow down all the areas that give me grief in life which i dir the other day..
whats happening next year is a big part of it
money is too
and so is my social life..
this is why i want a grad offer badly but i have to act as if i wont be... im really anxious about it
but i need to try and focus on the negative thinking and defuse it from emotion.. by challenging it..
none of this is new to me but i just need to do nore of it
its really hard atm because im just about convinced my life is pointless.. then i end up in suicidal ideation.. defusion will help with that i think..
gotta take it easy both physically and emotionally
also spoke about how meaning in life doesnt mean you are happy all the time.. an important distinction
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soulSenior Contributor
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Good morning @MDT - so happy that you found value in the pysch appt. That's a pretty big realisation the bit about not having to be happy all the time. If we were, I don't think we would be appreciative of what we do have. It's like having your favourite food everyday. after a while, it isn't special anymore.
It's okay to have an off day. I get that the future can be daunting. Getting a grad offer for next year isn't the be all. My daughter's boyfriend missed out and was bitterly disapppointed. But he got a job (not one he was particularly excited about) and then busted his guts applying for the following year. His one year's work experience held him in good stead and now he is part of that grad program he so much wanted.
Depression is an exhausting situation. Thinking all those neagtive thoughts saps the energy out of you.
You are an intelligent person and know what you need to do - now there's the actual implementation as you mentioned.
Hope that today is a good one for you and the next and the next.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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Thanks @soul
It is very exhausting yes...
I made a phonecall for a job offer i got my dad to help me with so hopefully something comes of this.. i was nervous as just before but i thought i just have to do it anyway and then i did it... it was only to book in an appointment for an interview but that's how anxiety works.. so i just went ahead and did it before i procrastinated
Mum tells me i have a good phone manner, but i dunno.. i guess i might.. that's why i was annoyed about the job at uni but that's in the past now..
Something so small like that really shouldn't be an issue, but i think it becomes one when i tell myself it shouldn't be... it's like a self fulfilling prophesy.. but anyway it's done now so that's okay
need to focus on the rest of the day now
i have reading to do for uni so i am thinking of going down to a cafe a few streets away and just setting up there.. might sit outside because it is a nice day..
point is i need to take it easy today.. might do some research this afternoon for internships and grad offers..
depression and anxiety forces me to be economical.. spending energy on the things that i need to do is more important..
