MDTSenior Contributor
sick of this sh*t
wasting my time is something i am really good at
i hate myself
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sick of this sh*t
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MDTSenior Contributor
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@soul its good but i cant think of examples where i proved myself wrong
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MDTSenior Contributor
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@soul i will try to go tomorrow during my 3 hour break at uni as there is an anytime fitness near uni.
today i just need to read and catch up and see the psych
decided to take a bath
today i just need to read and catch up and see the psych
decided to take a bath
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soulSenior Contributor
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Not minimising your pain in any way but @MDT when you say you have never been wrong, I would have to disagree. Many times on this Forum, you have said that you are a failure.
The fact that you are at Uni and nearing completion of a degree suggests to me that you are far from being a failure. You may not measure up to a particular ideal in your eyes but That doesn't mean that you are without worth.
One day, you will realise that you do matter. I hope that day is sooner rather than later. Right now, your way of thinking doesn't allow you to do this. It won't always be like this.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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i understand what you mean @soul
i just feel entrapped by my anxiety .. the strangest things can upset me
saw my psych today and it was helpful
new medication to take now
i just feel entrapped by my anxiety .. the strangest things can upset me
saw my psych today and it was helpful
new medication to take now
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soulSenior Contributor
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Glad to hear that you got something out of the psych appt @MDT. Don't expect instant results with the new meds. May take a while to kick in. Have a good day.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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it was okay yeh
today will be a bad day
ive just got on the train and forgotten to bring my stuff for uni i had to hand in... and my tablet to take notes...
but i remember my stupid hair product...
everything is on an equal footing because im useless and pathetic...
im sick of tricking myself into thinking otherwise..
im sick of me...
i hate being so tall and i hate having social anxiety...
im on a knifes edge because i feel like im about start crying at how hopeless my situation is and no one gives 2 shits...
everyone thinks im fine and im not..
today will be a bad day
ive just got on the train and forgotten to bring my stuff for uni i had to hand in... and my tablet to take notes...
but i remember my stupid hair product...
everything is on an equal footing because im useless and pathetic...
im sick of tricking myself into thinking otherwise..
im sick of me...
i hate being so tall and i hate having social anxiety...
im on a knifes edge because i feel like im about start crying at how hopeless my situation is and no one gives 2 shits...
everyone thinks im fine and im not..
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MDTSenior Contributor
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i want to die
i feel like i want to disappear
i feel like i want to disappear
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Hi there @MDT
I am concerned about you and how you are feeling this morning, as it seems like some things have gone wrong for you and you are struggling to cope with that, please check your emails when you get a chance, it's important you get some support this morning.
Lunar
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soulSenior Contributor
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Sorry to hear that your day hasn't gotten off to a very good start @MDT. Can you hand in your uni stuff later in the day? Or submit it online?
Tall can have its advantages - just saying - coming from a short person who has to ask for help in reaching items on top shelves at supermarkets.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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nah it has to be at the lecture @soul
i was annoyed because i put this effort in... to no avail..
i went to the gym between classes which was an achievement given i was close to jumping on a train and coming home..
im at my favourite cafe near uni atm and just ate my lunch... sick of seeing couples everywhere i go... feels like my youth and optimism is just all gone now... and i dont get to experience that happiness..
no amount of gym will stop that
i have class in 25mins so im gonna make my way over..
i feel sad again tbh... just really really sad at myself and my situation..
very bleak day despite my best efforts to change it...
i was annoyed because i put this effort in... to no avail..
i went to the gym between classes which was an achievement given i was close to jumping on a train and coming home..
im at my favourite cafe near uni atm and just ate my lunch... sick of seeing couples everywhere i go... feels like my youth and optimism is just all gone now... and i dont get to experience that happiness..
no amount of gym will stop that
i have class in 25mins so im gonna make my way over..
i feel sad again tbh... just really really sad at myself and my situation..
very bleak day despite my best efforts to change it...
