loosing the will to go on

@Eden1919 for once yes it was quite helpful. its pointed me in a better direction than what i was headed so thats a good start!

@outlander that is really good to hear even if it is only the start at least it is something positive.

yes @Eden1919 i needed something positive becasue right now all i was seeing is negative

@outlander yeah it can be good to get another perspective

is anyone around?

im trying to work out a thought of mine but id liek other POV

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I am around @outlander

well im wondering if its a wise decision to tell my Gp about my suicidal thoughts? or my SH? or how i became careless if i was to do something stupid?
im worried she will send me back to hospital. i have a little bit more direction now though. so im wondering if i just say ive been ok , taking these meds now and talk about my psychiatrist appointment not psychologist and also get my ultrasound result back

@outlander hmmmm well i think being honest is always good but you could always tell your GP that you are feeling X way but that you are not planing anything (unless you are) and that may reassue them enough to not send you back to hospital. but i would try and be as honest as possible even if they do send you back to the hospital maybe there is a reason and maybe that is where you need to be at the time. but i can understand not wanting to go back there.

i just really dont want to go back to hospital. i know im not well but i dont want to go back there.

i would cop so much slack from the people i live with. it really isnt worth going

@Eden1919

and no i think im past the idealation and its gone bakc to woryying if i do get the thoughts not at the point where i jsut didnt care

@outlander Yeah i mean i think it is unlikely they would send you back there as hospital isnt always very helpful to people with BPD but also if you are willing to work with them which i think you are i dont think they will send you back.