not coping

Hun you are battling so much yourself @outlander that the little energy you do have needs to be invested into you helping yourself.

Where is the rule book on what a sister should and shouldn't do? Or is it the expectation you have of yourself?

You do enough for your siblings as it is. Again, they are not your children.

Have you ever thought that this is your depression talking? That is the reason that there is little joy.

I am only saying this because I know how my depression effects me and I can relate so much to what you are saying.

I am glad your pop starts home care soon. Hopefully that will help you out too.

I know you see your pdoc every now and then but perhaps you need to see a different pdoc if you think they are just shoving meds down your throat. Remember you are paying for a service and if you are not happy with that service then you are in your right to change or get a different opinion. At the time I didn't want to change psych's but now looking at it, it was the best thing I could of done.

Sorry to be so blunt but perhaps you need to access the counsellor more.

It still doesn't mean your feelings and thoughts are not valid hun. You take on such a lot for such a young person. I can't imagine how hard your life is hun, and how much you have to cope with. You take on so much as a carer, daughter and sister. So little time for you to be taking care of yourself. But that is often the way, we as human beings are good at putting ourselves last.

Keep being you @outlander , because you is an amazing and extraodinary person 💖💜

@outlander I'm sorry if I was too blunt last night.

Hoping today is going a little better for you. As always you are in my thoughts

Lots of love and hugs 💜💌💕💙

I am ok @outlander

Been an up and down day

How are you hun?

Happy to listen @outlander

I'm sorry your pop has been difficult today but glad you have ticked some things of your list.

I am just scared of going backwards.

sometimes he just doesnt understand money concepts and why we cant just go out and buy things (more so the expensive things) and then he takes everything out on me. and the he dwells and dwells on it and goes round and round till i basically sort out what he wants. what hes asking will take a while because i have alot of things for him and my things to pay out before i even think about getting a trailor registered (mind you its been sitting there for a yr not even being used and its only cause i mentioned its out of rego) had a full argument (or him ranting and raving more like it) about how i need to keep track of things and why didnt i look on the board (where i keep our rego papers all hanging up) and blah blah blah and why is the power behind and why is he still paying off his credit card debt etc. so much pressure all the time from so many angles and i cant work out any to get a break with so many things happening and with trying to work up enough money to hurry up and get the scope done im trying to work work work to just get that extra bit together.

i totally get worrying about going backwards. do you think your slipping backwards or something in particular worrying you that makes you think your slipping backwards? @Snowie

@Sans911 💜💐