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not coping

outlanderSenior Contributor04 Aug 2017, 8:11 pm AEST

not coping

im not coping

i cant handle all of these things

besides my mental health deteriorating so dramatically, and my physicall health floating up the creek

and now within the past few hours

my great grandmother now is in a nursing home and they dont know how long she has left and to make thigns worse i think i have to put my beleoved horse down.

we just had vets out and spend the last 4 hours trying to save my horse. its been 2 hours and went back to check on her and its not looking good.

not good at all 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞

i dont know what to do or how to feel, im a complete mess 😞

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outlanderSenior Contributor16 Dec 2023, 10:31 pm AEDT

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hey @Captain24 long time no speak!
oh how was your holiday!?

im tired but im also in a fair bit of pain and cant sleep so just watching tv and waiting on dinner to come now. i not long finished work so need to sort out dinner and a shower. still waiting on dinner for the last 40 minutes though so hopefully doesnt take to long otherwise im showering and trying to go to bed!

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Captain24Senior Contributor16 Dec 2023, 10:49 pm AEDT

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It has been a while @outlander. I haven’t been doing very well so I’ve had time out and also I haven’t had the capacity to support others. But I have been following along and thinking of you all.

Any closer to getting pop into a home? I’m sorry you are still in so much

pain. I hope the infection heals pretty quickly.

Also I hope things work out for you on the job front.

My holiday was good. I loved being able to swim in the beach everyday and everywhere we walked there was water.

Also I’ve had extra meds so if I stop responding it means I’ve passed out.

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outlanderSenior Contributor16 Dec 2023, 10:53 pm AEDT

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thats totally ok @Captain24 ive bene much the same too. i read alot but my brain hasnt been able to form words!

i hope next year there will be a placement soon. but im not to sure yet.

the infection is clearing, its in the itching stage but because of the depth the itch is the one you cant ever scratch!

i suffer from severe pain conditions so sometimes the pain flares up past the bounds of 'normal' for me so like tonight. the muscular pains in my legs currently are really bad and the neuropathic pain.

i am so glad you had a good time away and your cute little furbaby too! its so good to have some time away.

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SnowieSenior Contributor17 Dec 2023, 9:56 am AEDT

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Hey hon @outlander

I'm sorry to hear about your pain last night. I hope you got your dinner and was able to get some rest and feel a little better today.

Sent you some gentle hugs my sis 💜💜

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RiverSealModerator17 Dec 2023, 1:04 pm AEDT

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Hey @Captain24, just checking in on you since your last post! How are you going and have you seen the email sent to you earlier? RiverSeal

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Captain24Senior Contributor17 Dec 2023, 1:08 pm AEDT

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No @RiverSeal. It hasn’t come through yet. I am having trouble with some of the emails from SANE. They seem to take a while.

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RiverSealModerator17 Dec 2023, 1:14 pm AEDT

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OK @Captain24 good to know that you are having those issues and I will let the Community Manager know. Thanks for responding to my post! RiverSeal

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outlanderSenior Contributor17 Dec 2023, 5:54 pm AEDT

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yeah i ended up in bed by around 1am. got up at 7 fixed some fencing, finished christmas shopping just have one more pickup tomorrow and wrap it.

going out for dinner and looking at christmas lights tomorrow night. i need some distraction from the pain im experiencing and some of the wound irritations im getting at the moment. im not sure if its an infection reoccuring or whether its actually finally starting to heal now after nearly a month

@Snowie im feeling pretty tired today but at work till 10 tonight then need to go get pop and have dinner shower and hopefully get abit of sleep then have so many calls to make tomorrow morning

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SnowieSenior Contributor18 Dec 2023, 8:50 am AEDT

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I'm sorry you are still in pain hon @outlander and that it is irritating you. Hopefully that means is is healing.

I hope you get through all the calls you need too.

Sneding love 💗💗

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outlanderSenior Contributor18 Dec 2023, 11:41 am AEDT

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So far I done the 3 calls that’s I needed to do and everything that needed arranging via that is done.
I’ve gone and gotten my 3 click and collects. Finished wrapping both mine and mums last presents. Done 2 loads of washing. Just 2 more to do now.
Cleaned out of my fridge and pantry and cleaned those.
Went grocery shopping and unloaded that.
Tidied pops room and my room

I just have to watch my sister for a few hours in about an hour or so but she’s helping do the horses.
I only need to vacuum the house, do the dishes, finish the washing and put it away.
Then take pop to someone’s house who is looking after him for the night. And then someone is coming over for dinner and to go look at lights. They are really struggling this Christmas so I got them a couple of gifts to go under their tree and offering a space to watch a Christmas movie and have some dinner and go see some lights tonight. Their kids are with their dad tonight, their mum is a friend of mine and has helped me out a fair bit in the past with work and stuff so I wanted to give back.

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