not coping

its really hard @tyme its nice to have friends but its hard being the one supporting all the time. i feel like im their support worker half the time and lately every phone call or text i just feel myself getting more and more drained and thats hard when its a friendship.

i dont know who to reach out to. its in times like these i realise how lonley a place im in even though i have people around me. i have a psychologist but ive only seen her once and while she knows about my sh i dont really feel comfortable talking about it that much with her yet as ive only had one session.

change is so hard. its hard when im the only one pushing for it and the reliance is still there from everyone else. and when the change im waiting for does happen or when theres spaces avaliable to make this change happen its going to be a very big shift for me again which is both bad but also good. its a good sort of bad though im not sure if it makes sense.


my urges are starting to cause upset within. im fighting them and i dont 'want' to but its what my brain is saying the best thing to do to cope is

ive had so many judgements past onto me because im a support worker @creative_writer it is often expected that we know how to support ourselves. and for the most part ive gotten better and im getting better at putting my own stuff aside to get through the work days but its still a struggle.

in my head i can think that SW need more support with half of the stuff we see and go through with clients but there still seems to be that taboo as well as in general.

but my supports i have to pay for so i cant just go hire my own support worker either if that makes sense

@outlander, I know those judgements really hurt, I’ve felt judged too, it’s awful. I’m a social work student, I’ve done volunteer work, including Lifeline, a lot of people assume you know the answers, but people who support others often need support too, it’s hard to support others when your cup is empty. I am sure many individuals with lived experiences go into supporting roles too, but it’s about managing that. It does take practice. Do you get regular supervision?

yes i find that people assume alot of things too @creative_writer but those are the ones who usually need the least judgement hey 😞


regular supervision? like at work?

@outlander, yes, are you able to get supervision at your workplace?

no @creative_writer
the manager of the company doesnt even check in. they are in a whole other state so dont supervise or anything like that.
i was the team leader but have stepped down a couple of months ago and the new team leader has caused nothing but issues. they are the least experienced person on the team as well as the laziest, and unsupportive person. no authority at all and most staff still come to me because they cant speak with the new one

hey @Snowie :heart