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Coming to terms with reality

Coming to terms with reality

Hi Readers, i am suffering from "mental health issues" and it is an ongoing, daily battle. I am pretty much constantly wrestling with the thoughts going on in my mind. And my psychical life seems too be suffering for it. (There is a huge difference between physical and mental ) something is definitely not right! So each day I'm waking up and going about my routine. And over the last few days, weeks and months. I have been noticing changes in my mentality toward myself, others and life. And some questions such as, what is my life about? And what should my objectives be? Have arisen... of course like we all are, I'm subject too making decisions... and there has been the same options in front of me time and time again for months on end. And it becomes rather draining and mundane. And i feel myself going around in circles like something simple just ain't connecting.

I enjoy writing, art, music. And peace of mind... walking, reading, meditation. Taking care of myself. Socialising. Etcetera. Getting ahead, getting in front. Planning, dreaming and so on. And do my best to look after myself. While accepting that it can only ever be so much.

But there just something not quite right. And I'm suffering for it on a daily basis. And I'm tired and fed up with going through the same stuff everyday. And in all honesty. Alot of my suffering comes from prospective and thought processes.

Does anyone wanna talk with me about some things that might help? In particular dealing with people no matter who they are. Can be very stressful and cause lots of procrastinating about pros and cons. In particularly people who i think about reaching out to for support. Because of dilemmas dramas and social dynamics. And picking up on things that "aint really happening" "gut feelings type of stuff " "intuition" that type of thing. And enjoying time with people is great! I just tend to be overly preoccupied with symptoms to be worried about socialising sometimes "Symptoms which involves others"

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Re: Sharing the wisdom within

Not paranoid or delusional thoughts @eudemonism I couldn't even imagine how hard it is to have those I have had jumbled thoughts but they mostly come when I haven't slept for days - all my thinking is distorted in some way then but luckily that hasn't been the case for some time. For me the medication has helped dramatically.

How often do you have those type of thoughts?

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When off my medication or before the depot... I would think up the most craziest and bizarre stuff... like really scary stuff that waz all paranoid and delusional... it would really frighten me... really detailed and intricate storylines which involved many people from my past and present life... it could all be triggered by simply bumping into someone... it would vary in nature and severity & my circumstances also played a role... the two extremes were total persecution or total grandiosity... one made me fear and one made me love... all not true though... all in my mind of course...

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That is a super tough way to live @eudemonism and no doubt very scary. I can't imagine what effect that all had on you Do you feel you are generally more 'evened out' on the medication?

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Yea however i feel it's all still lurking in the background of my mind. Everything/everyone that caused it to happen or was involved is still out there. It's not like i wanna face it again.

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Sometimes we can only deal with what we have right in front of us Eude. There are times when my past completely takes over but luckily at the moment I am keeping that at bay - it takes a lot of effort and a lot of work to do that but everyday I don't have a flashback, nightmare or intrusive thought is a win @eudemonism

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@Zoe7 I'm going to bed night night

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I am too Eude - goodnight - chat tomorrow @eudemonism

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Good morning @Zoe7

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good morning @eudemonism

What plans do you have today?

I need to go to next town which is about 15-20 minute drive depending on if there are any roadworks or very slow drivers...

I am meeting my younger son there...

I went out yesterday.....quite exhausted when I got home..

the previous day had long drive down to adelaide for specialist appointment....exhausted then

good for me to be getting out of the house more though...

how are you managing?

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I had a group activity today... It's been a good day so far... all in all I'm managing quite well; however i must always consider my reality vs my expectations @Sophia1
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