Coming to terms with reality

@Zoe7 Tormorrow sounds great for you Zoe7 :). What show have you been watching? I have a psych appt in the afternoon where I can talk about my issues re medication and weight and my moods etc. Will be interesting what she says. Before that I will do more exercise as I am determined to rid myself of this weight!!

Line of Duty - a British Cop drama @Bunniekins It isn't on until 8.30 so I will probably watch that and then head to bed - especially if I have done everything tomorrow I want to do.

I understand the weight gain from meds - I put on a lot of weight before my meds were changed - still trying to get some of it off too... I am getting there but it is very slow.

@Zoe7 Love thos British cop shows. My mum always watches them too lol. Meds knock me out by 8.30 though. Have to wait for reruns during the day. Used to love the Bill all those years ago lol.

I loved The Bill @Bunniekins watched it religiously every week. Always recorded it if I was not home to watch it lol

Some nights I wish I was in bed by 8.30 - last night it was about 10pm, up early but slept for another couple of hours this morning - could have stayed asleep most of the day with how I was feeling but glad I got up and to the pool - made a big difference to my afternoon.

@Zoe7 think I might do some more reading of my new book. I will 'see' you around Zoe7 thanks for talking 🙂

Enjoy your book @Bunniekins

No worries @Zoe7 I've had an ok day... I've filled the garbage bin up with some of the weed / clippings pile again, give it 5-6 weeks and i should have it under control.
I went for a drive with friend, took the dog for a run, helped out someone.
However I've been flat / a little off all day, because i haven't had many cigarettes today, i ran out... i've been on nico gum instead. ( managing this feeling is gonna be key to getting off the ciggies or even transitioning from smoke to gum)
It's good that your getting on top of the gardening, it's good that your taking Toby to the beech tomorrow. How's the social life been going? What are you cooking for tea?
My python shed it's skin tonight... purrpurr my cat sat there watching it happen... then she jumps on the tank and watches and paws at the glass, as if wanting t9 touch the python. then i pick her up; and she goes into fright, flight or fight mode, she's a tripper, jumping all over the place as i got her off the tank... *i think this is where curiosity killed the cat comes from.
Yea anyway, subject change. I can get really discouraged and disheartened about everything in my life, i really get moody and down about it; even enraged, especially at certain people, especially when i blame them as well.

Not an easy thing at all stopping smoking @eudemonism It is good that you have the gum and not trying to go cold turkey. It seems like you are doing an ok job so far so well done.

I am not a fan of snakes but it would be cool seeing your python shed their skin - one of natures little wonders

The previous cat I had decided that she wantedmto see what was in the fish tank where I had my hermit crabs and somehow got the lid off and jumped into the tank. Two of the poor little crabs ended up the other side of the kitchen - don't know how long she had been playing with them but they must have curled up in their shells while she patted them around the floor. They both survived!

I think we all feel discouraged or disheartened at times with things in our life Eude - what matters is how we deal with that. It is ok not to be positive about everything in our lives - we all have times when the negative mindset takes over - I am still learning how to get through those times too so you are not alone there.