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Coming to terms with reality

Coming to terms with reality

Hi Readers, i am suffering from "mental health issues" and it is an ongoing, daily battle. I am pretty much constantly wrestling with the thoughts going on in my mind. And my psychical life seems too be suffering for it. (There is a huge difference between physical and mental ) something is definitely not right! So each day I'm waking up and going about my routine. And over the last few days, weeks and months. I have been noticing changes in my mentality toward myself, others and life. And some questions such as, what is my life about? And what should my objectives be? Have arisen... of course like we all are, I'm subject too making decisions... and there has been the same options in front of me time and time again for months on end. And it becomes rather draining and mundane. And i feel myself going around in circles like something simple just ain't connecting.

I enjoy writing, art, music. And peace of mind... walking, reading, meditation. Taking care of myself. Socialising. Etcetera. Getting ahead, getting in front. Planning, dreaming and so on. And do my best to look after myself. While accepting that it can only ever be so much.

But there just something not quite right. And I'm suffering for it on a daily basis. And I'm tired and fed up with going through the same stuff everyday. And in all honesty. Alot of my suffering comes from prospective and thought processes.

Does anyone wanna talk with me about some things that might help? In particular dealing with people no matter who they are. Can be very stressful and cause lots of procrastinating about pros and cons. In particularly people who i think about reaching out to for support. Because of dilemmas dramas and social dynamics. And picking up on things that "aint really happening" "gut feelings type of stuff " "intuition" that type of thing. And enjoying time with people is great! I just tend to be overly preoccupied with symptoms to be worried about socialising sometimes "Symptoms which involves others"

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I used to wake several times during the night or not sleep at all @eudemonism so I understand how frustrating it is and how much the associated lethargy can impact you the next day. It is days like this when you also feel very negatve about everything and that is not a nice way to live.

I hope staying connected here with us can help you in even a small way - I know there were plenty of times when it really helped me in a similar situation.

Do you have any plans for today? It is raining here so no gardening for me but I do have the pool a little later. Other than that it will be housework and maybe some painting - although I am not in the headspace right now to do any painting.

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No plans for today @Zoe7 I've thought about giving a couple friends a call and seeing if they want to catch up. And just 'getting on with it ' but then i think 'I'm not really in the mood and don't really wanna deal with them ' my parents came back from a two day trip yesterday, i kept in contact with them via phone calls. And they said they were gonna pop in and see me, and i said in return, I'll pop out and see them... but again, i don't really feel like dealing with them. I'm just not in the mood for people and their bad attitudes...

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@Zoe7 if I'm going through the effort to socialize with people, I'm also having to deal with people and their problems and their bad attitudes. I've been hurt to many times before, by doing the exact same thing. Their moods, their temperaments, their problems, being empathetic toward them, having them speak over me, having them walk all over my faith and opinion, themselves making it all about them... -i really don't have the time or energy to deal with it any more...

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It is ok some days to have time away from the rest of the world @eudemonism

Today would be a good day for me to do the same but I need to stay in some sort of routine and getting to the pool is part of that.

I hear you about not having the energy to deal with it all - I often feel like that too. Maybe today needs to be a day to do some things for you and see how the day unfolds.

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Yea i was thinking about going for a small walk with Misty @Zoe7 and then calibrating the day again afterwards...

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That does sound like a lovely thing to do @eudemonism Often a walk can help clear our minds a little too and the exercise can give us a little more energy to deal with other things. That is why it is important I get to the pool this morning so I can get in some exercise and feel a bit more productive.

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Yea a problem that often gets in my way @Zoe7 is resentment toward the professional's and the system. It makes me feel so bitter, twisted and angry.

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I have definitely learnt that from you Eude - it is not a nice place at all to be in. I can't imagine how hard that is for you - I have been extremely lucky to get great health professionals helping me along the way - and I so wish you could have the same - it makes so much difference dealing with our own MH when others are helping us also.

I know you have pushed away all your supports and that you have had reasons to do that - that really sucks for you @eudemonism. It must be so hard for you buddy

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Have to head off and get organised for the pool @eudemonism Will catch you this afternoon when I get back

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Yea @Zoe7 it also proves something to me... it proves that I'm not the one with the problem... it proves to me, that society in general is a very sick place. - it should be expected to happen... it's just apart of what happens when dealing with the system.
That's great that you're going to the pool. Do you pay for admission yourself? Does Toby stay home when you go?
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