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Coming to terms with reality

eudemonismSenior Contributor02 Aug 2017, 7:01 pm AEST

Coming to terms with reality

Hi Readers, i am suffering from "mental health issues" and it is an ongoing, daily battle. I am pretty much constantly wrestling with the thoughts going on in my mind. And my psychical life seems too be suffering for it. (There is a huge difference between physical and mental ) something is definitely not right! So each day I'm waking up and going about my routine. And over the last few days, weeks and months. I have been noticing changes in my mentality toward myself, others and life. And some questions such as, what is my life about? And what should my objectives be? Have arisen... of course like we all are, I'm subject too making decisions... and there has been the same options in front of me time and time again for months on end. And it becomes rather draining and mundane. And i feel myself going around in circles like something simple just ain't connecting.

I enjoy writing, art, music. And peace of mind... walking, reading, meditation. Taking care of myself. Socialising. Etcetera. Getting ahead, getting in front. Planning, dreaming and so on. And do my best to look after myself. While accepting that it can only ever be so much.

But there just something not quite right. And I'm suffering for it on a daily basis. And I'm tired and fed up with going through the same stuff everyday. And in all honesty. Alot of my suffering comes from prospective and thought processes.

Does anyone wanna talk with me about some things that might help? In particular dealing with people no matter who they are. Can be very stressful and cause lots of procrastinating about pros and cons. In particularly people who i think about reaching out to for support. Because of dilemmas dramas and social dynamics. And picking up on things that "aint really happening" "gut feelings type of stuff " "intuition" that type of thing. And enjoying time with people is great! I just tend to be overly preoccupied with symptoms to be worried about socialising sometimes "Symptoms which involves others"

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor26 Sept 2018, 7:36 pm AEST

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Unfortunately I have heard many people in the community talk that way about their own family members. I cant go there. I believe you. Can you kieep the contact you have with them stable, and not ask for more from them, but look elsewhere for ways to grow and connect with people. People who dont just want a smoking or drinking buddy?

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eudemonismSenior Contributor26 Sept 2018, 7:41 pm AEST

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Yea... @Appleblossom that's a tough call... i mean, even the doctors and the professionals are all involved with myself because of really bad news.... 😄 what else should i expect from everyone else???

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eudemonismSenior Contributor26 Sept 2018, 7:42 pm AEST

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People need people @Appleblossom

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor26 Sept 2018, 7:46 pm AEST

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True @eudemonism At all levels and in different ways.

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eudemonismSenior Contributor26 Sept 2018, 8:31 pm AEST

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@Appleblossom I've just had a conversation with myself and cleared up a few things. Indeed feeling like a victim to everyone in my life now. Feeling like i don't wanna seek punishment upon them, to discipline them or to retaliate or the mhs may call it symptoms to my illness again...

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eudemonismSenior Contributor26 Sept 2018, 8:40 pm AEST

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Everything negative I'm going through is caused by resentment... & forgiving them... and the only potential positives... is resenting them, & punishing them (winning the battle)... which I'm afraid to do... because i don't wanna be made a victim again... because if i punish them... they will have two options... forgive me or punish me...

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eudemonismSenior Contributor26 Sept 2018, 8:49 pm AEST

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Society in general has used me as a scapegoat @Appleblossom

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Hope4meSenior Contributor27 Sept 2018, 4:40 am AEST

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Hey there @eudemonism

Reading your words was a trip down memory lane.

I think you need to allow yourself space to be mentally ill Eude! Your brain is sick for goodness sake! How could you possibly expect to work things out when there are times your mind can't even fathom getting out of bed in the morning?!

I'm not sure what situation you're in at home, but turning music off, packing photo's away and simplifying your home is well worth the effort. I did this so I didn't have any triggers or items that made my head spin. Even if you put things in storage; your home needs to be bland for a while.

And family? I stayed away and if I couldn't get out of it, I listened. My expectations were really low in the beginning. I mean, I was so mentally unstable, it was an effort to breath and smile let alone converse with anyone. Many a day I ended up in the loo crying, panicking and wondering how I'd make my escape.

My family got used to me listening instead of talking. People let their guard down too and disclosed all sorts of secrets and stuff.

For some reason we feel guilt and that we owe people an explanation for being mentally unwell. Let them wonder ok. When you're stronger, let them have it with both barrels. But for now, rest. Feel sorry for yourself and take a long bath whenever you want.

Please go easy on yourself ok. Rome wasn't built in a day...one step at a time.

Sending kind and gentle thoughts your way;

Hope

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TABSenior Contributor27 Sept 2018, 5:11 am AEST

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Hi @Sophia1 sorry I didn’t see your post til now. Umm yeah ditto re never grew up, well in good and notso good ways re me I guess. Thanks for compliment re impish 😸 nice to know there are more imps around 😀

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TABSenior Contributor27 Sept 2018, 5:15 am AEST

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What about sitting on dock of bay re songs , original ish version 😀 or Pearls aSinger by minnie ripperton. I used to sing it walking dirt roads from 1st house moved into after leaving home while walking 10ks to DSS those days lol 😀 @eudemonism

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