Good Morning!

@TAB 10 months ago I could not bend over or touch toes but now I can. Used to feel queezy in the tummy. Noticed it when I had to pick something off the ground. Thats good you walked yesterday. My walking hit the fan last week. Got tired of all the energy expenditure but seem to be doing better now. I've lost another two dress sizes approximately. The inches are coming off but the scales are the same

thats good @Former-Member ive lost flexibility, literal spare tyre around middle really does not help lol going for nap here

I have been saying affirmations like "I am youthful, vibrant and full of vitality" and circumstances congeal around me to attract things that benefit this state of play @TAB I keep unearthing solutions to issues that have come between me and my goals

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Back in from yet another walk. I don't know how I keep going. May go for a walk along the wetlands tomorrow. Not much news except I have lots of energy which is so unlike me. Anyway got to cook dinner and have an early night. I hope you get some restful sleep TAB

I did that around age 35 @Former-Member had rubber bands around wrists and would spend 5mins a day reciting things. Also made positive reminders onpost it notes and put them around house. of course forgot one, someone saw it and had a laugh lol

Yeah you can't go past affirmations! I dunno what I'm doing tonight. I'm a bit tired after walking an hour today. May just have a simple chicken stir fry tonight. I hope everything is going well for you in your new home. What happened with the $40K inheritance? Have you heard anything back yet? @TAB

not up to much here tonight @Former-Member rang lawyers first time in months other week. they did not return call. Rang other day , they acknowledged what had been happening ie Nothing and said they will get onto it, person who should be doing back in few days , will put on top of pile etcetc

could be 80k for all I know or could be debt for $40k so its bloody stressful when they claim its so simple and only thing that could slow it down is me (meeting f2f in jan, perth) then they did bare basics that they had promised to do for free earlier, i paid them like $2500 they claim doing it on cheap as favour for me, not more than $4-5000

Anyway see if her anything in next couple weeks, could have all happened already for all I know, could be just waiting for me to do overcomplicated procedure to prove me ID to German standards lol ie have to go there sign stuff etcetc If ever gets to that will do that in Adelaide at consulate here hopefully. Also sent email about capped no fault no proof compo claim w Army. basically said not employing liason peeps anymore just wait til dec/jan maybe will hear something good hopefully a few thousand just for the hell of it, basically they are throwing small sums of money around to people in the know (brother in airforce told me 2 days before it closed) to get like a winning scratchie ticket as acknowledgent for how Army in 1980s bastardisation was normal and widespread so like $20k max, no proof somehow , but they judge whether get anything, nothing or lots ie is it credible dunno maybe get $5k? $10K ? brother has mate who works in that section , said seen payouts for closet to $20k for trivial seeming things . fingers crossed..

@TAB Had a friend of a friend from the army ended up going into IT after the affect. Same thing. That was back in the 1990's. He had a breakdown as a result of it.

My Dad was in the British Airforce. He made no mention of such things. He may have avoided abuse. He was lucky if thats the case as he came from a highly abusive set of circumstances at home. Look I'm really sorry to hear this.

If you are successful in your payout that would be good. Its just a way for people to say sorry and to acknowledge what you went through. Must have been really scary for a young person. Its just not right.

Anyway hopefully this current bungle with lawyers works out. Its mercury retrograde and communication goes out the window. You may just have to wait it out and try and establish clearer lines of communication. But they do sound very unreliable

yeah I wasnt cut out for it re army @Former-Member it was so obvious they offered me a psych discharge after about 5 months. people would tell me youre not a soldier , ok thats superiors ok at start , guess I never was. just knuckled down for a while after that then progressively slackened off over last 18 mths of 2 years lol

Father was in German Army WW2 had nightmares every night of his life after that he said once like 20 years before he died

Yes Dad was alive during WW2 but missed conscription by one year. Went into the forces after that anyway. But yes Dad would mention when you knew a missile was going to get dropped - it goes silent in the sky. You can't hear anything overhead then boom! Can't go into too much detail here what went on in London as some folks might get sensitised but Dad grew up during the war as a child. He never mentioned nightmares but I think he had a lot of trauma and carried that through life @TAB