when is it time for hospital

what the others have said is true @outlandsr

a monster you are not

perhaps use this opportunity to chat with your pop about things? perhaps he could help.. clearly he loves you

I cant do this.

Guess what old habits are back. Things will never change. I cant believe this. Nothing sinks in!!!!!!

What is the point anymore.

@outlander do you have a plan for when things get like this?

I dont care anymore @MDT
I just dont. Things will never change. Ever never and im powerless to do anything else.
Im going to dissapear

@outlander you care sweetheart. You care so much that it hurts like hell. And if you disappear lil Sis, big Sis will come and find you. Sometimes loving people means that they can be hurt unintentionally. Things change-sometimes it's not painfully slow. Like for me. I want to give up some days too. Life sucks. But there is a purpose for people like us. I'm not sure what that is and when it will happen, but we have to hold on. You have to trust when there's no reason to trust. You have to hope when there seems no hope. And you have to keep trying when it seems there's nothing wrong with worth trying for. Hugs lil Sis. Lots of hugs. Come sit down beside me

Hi @outlander,

I can hear that you are still hurting today. What can you do that will help you to cope with this today?

We are around until 10pm tonight if you need some support.

I dont know @Former-Member
I really dont
I tried. I tried and tried. It just doesnt do anything.
I dont have any hope that this shite is going to get better. I have no idea what i am suppose to do now.
Im stuck in this and theres no escape. None.

Everything hurts sis. I hate living this life. I tried so hard to change myself and its just not good enough. Its never good enough. I dont knoe what else to do. I just want to dissapear. I want my wombat hole in the middle of absolutely nowhere.
I dont have any hope left. I tried hoping even there was nobe but now its gone. Its really gone now.
Im just going to plonk down here and do nothing.

@Sans911 above msg

@outlander - my day has gone pretty sucky too. We'll just sit this out together. Maybe tommorow is a better one; even if only slightly