when is it time for hospital

I dont know ill see what i can magically pull out of a hat to help calm down

Attagirl @outlander .... focus on keeping yourself distracted, and defer the worry for now.

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I dont know how long its been there @Faith-and-Hope thats the worry
I can only hope and keep fingers crossed that after they remove the section already it wont have spread after that. I dont know the steps after that. She said take it one step at a time. I cant take it one step at a time. I want it removed. Im sick of tests. I can comprehend all of this. Its just so overwhelming

@Former-Member actually I'm not too stressed about my rental inspection. I've done everything I can to make the house ready, and will do a final clean up this morning. They give you a list of what they require, so as long as I follow that we should be fine. Last time when they did the inspection there were more packing boxes about, so it's a lot better now. Despite my mental illness, I am still functional most days. I clean up, shower, feed the cat and myself.

@outlander just try to draw anything. Doesn't matter what it is. Can you do that for 15mins?

@outlander,you can't worry til the test results come back,you have a doctor who is taking it full on to avoid hopefully anything wrong.We have these things at any age unfortunately, depends what you are dealt with.Try and do something to distract you.🍭

Ok @Sans911 ill try

Why am i always dealt the hard crap @Former-Member its not fair

Yes,I rented for six months @Sans 911 when I tried a life elsewhere,the real estate ways of intimidation at times wasn't good,and I was a good tenant,left the house cleaner than when I went in.Tried to hit me with "junk "I left which were the laminated floorboards from the previous owners doing the floor and a curtain rod etc,that was there.Real estates are not regulated by anything and that scares the hell out of me.

You're not alone @outlander ..... and many people are dealt a lot of hard crap .....that is not to invalidate how you're feeling, and it's not fair ..... nobody can make it fair ..... but they are definitely personal growth opportunities that can make you stronger and more resilient for your future.

Take things one baby step at a time, distract, distract, distract ..... and endeavour to keep your centre calm in the face of the storms raging around you Hon ...... be that peaceful warrior who soldiers on ..... and quietly finds the courage and strength within to get back up again every time she's knocked down, even if she just lays there for a while and has a big cry first ...... it's allowed ❣️