outlanderSenior Contributor
when is it time for hospital
when do you find its time to go to hospital?
im debating whether its the right move for me
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when is it time for hospital
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outlanderSenior Contributor
Re: when is it time for hospital
Thanks @Zoe7
Yes and you can borrow honey-marshmallow and hopscotch bubblegum anytime you like though in a wsy i hope I never envision silhouettes....
Goodnight ❤❤
Yes and you can borrow honey-marshmallow and hopscotch bubblegum anytime you like though in a wsy i hope I never envision silhouettes....
Goodnight ❤❤
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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I journal everyday @soul
I know im all over the place atm but my encouragment to others doesnt take its toll on me like other things. Ivr dropped of responding some snd only doing some where i can but i think helping others is keeping my spirit alive even though i feel empty.
The mh team know everything. My home situation my triggers my hospital admissions my sh my SI everything. My psychologist and psychiatrist and gp know as well except the abuse.
I hsve alot of trouble regulating my moods and emotions and i dont know why. One minute as you say im ok to completely falling apart. They are so extreme i never know if im in control or not because ots always changing. And yes its very confuding for me.
I find having a routine helps but being bored doesnt. Being bored makes it worse. I know i need to rest but if i do that all my thoughts come back snd im triggered left right and centre.
My permanent solution to this is change within my family which they dont like as shown the other day or them moving out. Thats what im waiting for. Thars what my hopes are clinging too.
I know im all over the place atm but my encouragment to others doesnt take its toll on me like other things. Ivr dropped of responding some snd only doing some where i can but i think helping others is keeping my spirit alive even though i feel empty.
The mh team know everything. My home situation my triggers my hospital admissions my sh my SI everything. My psychologist and psychiatrist and gp know as well except the abuse.
I hsve alot of trouble regulating my moods and emotions and i dont know why. One minute as you say im ok to completely falling apart. They are so extreme i never know if im in control or not because ots always changing. And yes its very confuding for me.
I find having a routine helps but being bored doesnt. Being bored makes it worse. I know i need to rest but if i do that all my thoughts come back snd im triggered left right and centre.
My permanent solution to this is change within my family which they dont like as shown the other day or them moving out. Thats what im waiting for. Thars what my hopes are clinging too.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
Re: when is it time for hospital
Good night everyone
Hopefully the monsters stay away tonight
@Sans911 @soul @Faith-and-Hope @Ant7 @Former-Member @Former-Member @Zoe7 ❤❤❤❤
Hopefully the monsters stay away tonight
@Sans911 @soul @Faith-and-Hope @Ant7 @Former-Member @Former-Member @Zoe7 ❤❤❤❤
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Ant7Senior Contributor
Re: when is it time for hospital
@outlander good night take care ❤️
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander Goodnight lil Sis. I don't think you quite see how much better you are doing in the last few days. You're more open to suggestions, you can respond more positively to those suggestions thanks to the wonderful Zoe Method (I smile a little when I see this. Someone needs to study and patent this). And I'm aware you're emotions are all the place and life continues to throw challenges at you. But you're doing a great job of trying to understand yourself, what makes you tick, and more importantly, how to fix it. You stumble, but you get right back up again and commit to trying again. Just keep swimming sweet girl. Sweet dreams my angel 😇
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Goodnight @outlander .... 😴💕
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Goodmorning everyone ❤❤
@Sans911 im trying. I am but i still dont know who i am. I thought ive had many changes and many lightbulb moments. Im tired and have no idea who i am.
People say im outlander but when i look at myself i dont see the person that others are describing.
I see more of a silhouette of a figure and nothing more.
I dont know. Another days here and im still that same figure.
I thought alot about what @soul had said and im trying to think of things that will better me.
Do i quit my second job
Do i keep it
Do i keep studying
Do i not
Do i increase my psychologist appointments
Change gps.
I cant move out. Thats no an option so i have to make do with what i can
Keep trying to change myself and get in trouble from family every step of the way
Keep trying to change my family dynamics but again i keep getting in trouble
Am i abusing my freedom
Should i be doing something else
How can i improve me to make things better. To have good days. To be more mentally stable
@Sans911 im trying. I am but i still dont know who i am. I thought ive had many changes and many lightbulb moments. Im tired and have no idea who i am.
People say im outlander but when i look at myself i dont see the person that others are describing.
I see more of a silhouette of a figure and nothing more.
I dont know. Another days here and im still that same figure.
I thought alot about what @soul had said and im trying to think of things that will better me.
Do i quit my second job
Do i keep it
Do i keep studying
Do i not
Do i increase my psychologist appointments
Change gps.
I cant move out. Thats no an option so i have to make do with what i can
Keep trying to change myself and get in trouble from family every step of the way
Keep trying to change my family dynamics but again i keep getting in trouble
Am i abusing my freedom
Should i be doing something else
How can i improve me to make things better. To have good days. To be more mentally stable
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outlanderSenior Contributor
Re: when is it time for hospital
Feel free to jump in @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Former-Member and everyone as well.
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soulSenior Contributor
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Struggling with identity is something many people have an issue with @outlander. Often we are judged by our profession. How many times when first meeting someone, does the question of "What do you do?" come up? I read a book once about the indigenous people of our country and when they are introduced to someone their first question is "Who is your tribe?"
My kids are largely independent so my role as a mother is no longer as pertinent as it used to be. My parents have passed away so I'm nobody's offspring anymore. Out of my three siblings, I only have communication with my brother who lives 2000kms away. I'm not in a relationship so I'm not a wife or partner. I don't have a job outside the home so I don't have colleagues. And since my trauma, I have kept away from most of my friends. I have only really lived where I am for six months so don't feel part of the community. So basically, my identity is a bit vague.
You are a daughter (with a mother who depends on you, even though she doesn't show appreciation), you are a sister (whose siblings are in your care a lot of the time) and a grand daughter (and you get on well with your Pop) You have those family ties.
You are a student who is continually learning and achieving great results which will open doors to other career paths.
You are an employee who works with horses and fulfills an important role in their care.
You have friends in your community.
And you have your whole life ahead of you. The family dynamics pretty much suck but if moving out isn't an option and your mother and boyfriend haven't taken steps to go either, you are stuck with coping the best you can. I read something very enlightening this morning about emotional triggers and how we should make a conscious response rather than a knee jerk reaction which we usually later regret.
It seems that you are very confused about how to make your life better. Making choices isn't easy especially when we worry about choosing the wrong path. We wish that someone could make them for us but we aren't in your situation and can only offer suggestions at best.
The one thing that I can guarantee though is that all this will pass. Good times never last forever and neither do bad ones. Life has its ebbs and flows.
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Unknown userMember
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I don't know if I can help you @outlander,the moderator pulled a post yesterday so I didn't get back on.I thought I kept it safe",and the way I felt rejection contributed to it.
You know you need to do what's right for you and not to get dependent on anyone else to make decisions for you.You need all the above,I wouldn't increase psychologist appointments if costs were involved but that's up to you.There is only so much you can get out of it like anything else.I think we will always have bad days,fact of life you just have to fine tune it to make sure measures are in place to ensure you are there tomorrow.This is very hard.I do suggest if you had that experience yesterday you do get to the GP if he/she is reliable.You do need to have a check and it doesn't mean wheeling you off to hospital because the way you are you have insight of your problems and that's a good thing.
