when is it time for hospital

wow @Former-Member seems we have ALOT in common. yeah the time really drags out. i was sitting in my car today watching the water stream down my window. it was like it was mirroring my inside. it was like the rain was crying for me. if i could cry then the streaming wouldve been matching the water running down my window.

no ive had two dangerous horse riding accidents now, one i thought id broke my foot and i think i wouldve preferred a break at least it wouldbe healed my now. but instead it drags on. the other i thought i broke my neck or damaged my pine. i was lucky to have walked away with a slipped disk and arthritis.

yes Li1 thats what its like me for. being dealt the short hand esp since im a mistake. theres no use denying that now becasue its clear as day and now i understand why im a servant as well a getting all these things happen to me.

ive got orthotic shoes, they arent helping me. ive taken those meds and at this point i cant move my toes. i cant move anything. its gone all stiff but it still hurts like hell.

You have had serious accidents @outlander.I can't get on here and b****** to you when you say you are a mistake because I feel or have felt the same in my lifetime.Yes the times in the car are confronting,you get a sense what it must be like for those who are homeless.I had that today where you feel very alone and unloved.I get down outlander because I worked really hard to prove myself years ago only to find myself back further into oppression.I understand.💞

You have had serious accidents @outlander.I can't get on here and b****** to you when you say you are a mistake because I feel or have felt the same in my lifetime.Yes the times in the car are confronting,you get a sense what it must be like for those who are homeless.I had that today where you feel very alone and unloved.I get down outlander because I worked really hard to prove myself years ago only to find myself back further into oppression.I understand how hard it is outlander.💟

thanks for understanding @Former-Member it really is terrible. and yes confronting it is. yet today it was almost like watching the rain reflect how i feel released its tears from me. it hasnt made me feel better but its like even nature understands.

nature is the only thing that seems to be ok with me being there

That's why I walk up the bush @outlander,where I don't have to see and try not to talk to anyone.Its like when I see the brumbies and how they take flight when they see me,I relate to them because I do it.I used to take off if anyone came to the house when I was going because I was shy or embarrassed about my weight.I grew out of it,with a job,money,and losing a lot of weight...But slowly that girl who copped a lot of bullying,family fights,mother who put irrational thoughts on me,and emotional turmoil from trauma returned and retreated.My uncle told me when he was drunk one night how everyone thought I was "such a joke"when I was a kid ,also I'd make a good whale.It hurt,still does and even though I love them I can't handle them.

I understand how it feels to feel like a mistake outlander.Its not you but,it's how you were made to feel through the stupid behavior and the environment you were "nurtured "in.

That's why I walk up the bush @outlander,where I don't have to see and try not to talk to anyone.Its like when I see the brumbies and how they take flight when they see me,I relate to them because I do it.I used to take off if anyone came to the house when I was young because I was shy or embarrassed about my weight.I grew out of it,with a job,money,and losing a lot of weight...But slowly that girl who copped a lot of bullying,family fights,mother who put irrational thoughts on me,and emotional turmoil from trauma returned and retreated.My uncle told me when he was drunk one night how everyone thought I was "such a joke"when I was a kid ,also I'd make a good whale.It hurt,still does and even though I love them I can't handle them.

I understand how it feels to feel like a mistake outlander.Its not you but,it's how you were made to feel through the stupid behavior and the environment you were "nurtured "in.Im going to bed to stop eating as I am eating to punish myself ....Don't know what to do with ourselves do we?.Try and rest girl.🙋

im sorry @Former-Member that you went through all of that.

i hope you have a good nights sleep.

hy my sister @outlander, sending you hugs

hi @NikNik ill take a look now

hey @Shaz51 thanks