when is it time for hospital

ooh @Former-Member you didnt hurt me. not at all.

i appreciate your help and its prob jsut as frustrating me as it is for you thats i seem to be getting know where i cant get an answer

my psychiatrist is opting for that retreat she really wants me to go and then i have my gp sitting there saying i dont need tog o which has me really conflcited and unsure of what to do as well

im trying to get another job as well so i can save up to get away for a few night and also get into a few courses i want to do and ons psych and ones nutrition and ones the human anatomy- they are the basic courses but i get a certificate in all of them

Hi @outlander

I've not been able to read back through the thread, I am having problems retaining information but would like to know how you are going and I think I did read that you are thinking of going into a retreat?

im actually able to start the anatomy course in 2 weeks and was thinking about it but i dont know if i should yet @Former-Member im in the middle of doing thw mindspot course as well. but im finding that i need somethign to occupy my mind as well but what if i go to hospital and i ahve to pull out or cant keep up

im actually interested in the nurtition and personal training sde of things. sicne both of these courses are cheap plus psych as well as they are really basic i was going to do all three then when i havhe a enough do the personal training and nutrition course combined into the cert3 and keep working up from there

hello @oceangirl i hope you start to feel better soon

I am still smack bang in the middle of the storm
I seen my nurse yesterday and she took some swabs for me to see if I have an infection down stairs- lets hope not but the amount of antibiotics and stress ive been under it wouldnt surprise me
I thought id hold off on hosipital at this second but was at my last straw that If I needed to I was going.
I went to see my psychiatrsit today and she said I tappered off way to fast on medications which could be abit of the way im feeling plus the lack of family support, lossing friends, being a 'mum' when im not a mum im suppose to be a sister as well as starting out as being a carer at such a young age – this si including my nan so I was 14 then. And also the family troubles ive been having with my mother and my sisters as well as the bullies and the full on few days ive had to push through with the sick horse isnt helping me.
She said please the next time I even think about suicide to call an ambulance as the way I was speaking to her today about the way ive been feeling I may not thin next time and I might just do it and not think of anything else and just make an attempt.

She wants me to start doing things for myself as well and to take the time to just do something each day that I want to do even if I dont feel like it esp the drawing as she said that was something that was helping me and even if I dont feel like it do it any way itll give my brain something else to think about. She wants me to get my favourite books back out and start reading them again, even write recounts of eahc chapter to keep my mind occupied if thats something im into

She said that there is a place about an hour and half away from me that is a metal health retreat and she can organise for me to go there. The only problem is yet again my responsibilities here and what my sisters and mother would think if I was to go. It runs for 4 weeks and I would be an inpatient. I havent got the full details as yet as I said I need to think about it.

Tomorrow I start a new medication when I get to my gp in the morning and she has also increased to to see my gp twice a week otherwise they will be ringing in to check on me and if I dont answer theres a possibility they will send an ambulance and have me admitted involuntary

the self harm urges I was telling her about she is agreeing with me that its like an addiction and when I dont feed the addiction its pretty much into withdrawal which is why I start to have all those extra side effects that I wasnt having before.

I havent slept properly in a few days because my sisters been sick and it sets my health anxiety off. She is on antibitoics as of today as she went to the drs so hopefully that will clear up quickly

whats appeitie? I dont know what that is anymore I think im suppose to be eating yeah well nope

this is some seriously scary shite- fpr my psychiatrist to be saying that has seriously opened my eyes as to how serious my mental health is and that I seriously need some help and now before I do make an attempt.

She did say though but I seem to be taking it ok- done have much emotion anyway unless its the health anxiety and that was she said if I dont stop self ahrming then shes failed. An she doesnt really want to do that. No pressure much.

I dont know what to do. The health retreat does sound quite nice but its 4 weeks how the heck am I going to work that out when mum works, im pops carers and ive got the horses to do. I cant leave it all to them but I need to at the same time. I know it would be the right choice if I did go but I cant go 😞

This is some very scary stuff!!

i spoke to my mother and it was again an argument and now im a psychopath 😞

im trying to work out something and at the moment going away fro a few days in a hotel sound like a good option

im absoulty knackered ! @Owlunar@Shaz51@Former-Member@oceangirl@Former-Member@CheerBear

I have stayed in motels outlander when family stressed me,didn't do a thing as you are 10x more stressed feelings alienated and feelings of homeless,plus the awful waste of money I couldn't afford.As for the retreat is it for people your age?,is it actually going to help you?.It's probably good respite time. But as soon as you walk back in the door the same problems will be there.As I and others say you need to make a life outside your family whether it's finding a job to your liking ,doing a course etc.

I have stayed in motels outlander when family stressed me,didn't do a thing as you are 10x more stressed feelings alienated and feelings of homeless,plus the awful waste of money I couldn't afford.As for the retreat is it for people your age?,is it actually going to help you?.It's probably good respite time. But as soon as you walk back in the door the same problems will be there.As I and others say you need to make a life outside your family whether it's finding a job to your liking ,doing a course etc.

Don't put all your faith in the belief that drugs or a retreat will solve your situation,it won't.You need to take control of your own life.

@Former-Member

i didnt really think of those questions. i dont have the answer to it either but probably not its probably for slightly older people as she didnt say its for youth so uner 25 so im doubting it.

apparently it has on site psychologists and psychiatrists plus it runs a depression/anxiety program as well

other than that i dont really know

i was thinking about taking up another course the ones im interested in but i dont know

its not my job i dont liek its the family situation im in