when is it time for hospital

@Anony18

im ok, still not great. still really lost and underserving but im here. thanks for checking in and for your support

@Former-Member i hope your feeling abit better yourself today

today has been so busy!

this morning i had my hair done again as i want it lightened and my hairs dark just like claire- on outlander and now ive gotten the blonde streaks as well. i only ahd half a head done but after i left i realised there wasnt too much blonde and so i went and got the rest done. it looks sooo much better now and im even more happy with it. first time in 10 years ive had my hair done and 3 years since a trim.

ive had many mnay 'dumb' moments today- first i tripped up my back steps, then i walked into my room and stood there and completely forgot why i was there, hit my hit with the paddock gate as i forgot to latch it backwards so as i was going thorugh the wind picked up and hit the back of my car, i had to hold a few horses for the dentist - got paid for it so was a bonus- but the horse i go to all the time as its part time care i forgot i took his rug off and stood there calling this horse looking for his colour and not the rug and he was standing there in front of me the whole time! then i locked my friggin keys into the shipping container at the paddock so i had to call someone to come and open the shipping container back up so i could drive home, then when i got home i realised i left my other key to my friends hshipping contrainer in her container and locked it in there!

so ive had a bloode right day!

i feel sick

i feel really sick

its hard to breathe

this anxiety feels like its smothering me!

@Former-Member@Owlunar@Anony18@Former-Member

Calm down @outlander,deep breaths,you must look good with your hair,you did spoil yourself!@Anony18 thanks for your words,good this morning but letting stress affect blood pressure, getting headaches,bit better today but like outlander,bites me at any moment.Dont know,like outlander how to handle stress.

@Former-Member i cant

i cant get a grip.

im trying to breathe but i cant

its hard

i cant @Former-Member my vertigo is acting up i cant move