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im back..... i think

im back..... i think

hi @Mazarita @Owlunar @Former-Member @Adge @Spookytookims @CheerBear @Former-Member @Shaz51

i was lil-caterpillar

im back..... i think.....

im just treading very very lightly at the moment

but id like to let you know that i have read what you wrote on my other threads and i appreciate your kind words and for thinking of me even after i left here

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Yeah my mum use to.do that to me too so i never wrote anything bad or personal in it i knew she was reading it but she didnt know that i knew
They still snoop now i cant wait till i get my own privacy @Former-Member
Im sure they still read it now so i don't use it. Even my car isn't safe they always seem to snoop there too

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Im fighting urges of SH

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Please don't hurt yourself @outlander. Is there someone you can call? The lifeline number?

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Are you there @outlander ? xx

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Hi @outlander - I hope you didn't see my non response as an abandonment. I left on an impromptu drive to nature to get fresh air and get peace from my head temporarily. I returned to rush for dinner with a few gfs and am now back seeing how everyone is doing, particularly you my friend. The thoughts disappeared temporarily but are now all back giving me the anxiety because there is no silence in my head.

I read all your posts. It sounds like you are giving an exceptionally rough day - bullies, the physical pain and your snooping sister. I have 2 sisters and 4 brothers so know what it's like to argue with them and have them be all snoopy, it's like leave me alone!!!! I am hoping and praying tomorrow will be a much better day for you. Know I am here as with the others. Please try not to harm yourself and delete yourself. Take a step back from forums if need be. You are worth it my friend. As hard as it is, we need remember that we are all worth it to be loved for our goodness and the scars we hold. This includes you.

You know one funny thing. Last couple days been listening at least once or twice to Alessia cara's - Scars to your beautiful. If you have not, do listen. Her lyrics hit me particularly the chorus

But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

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@Anony18 I was listening to that today also, such a beautiful song. Wish I could have heard it 10 years ago! The lyrics are just amazing

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I know @Former-Member - I just heard it again. I listen to it when I am feeling low about myself. It makes me cry of course

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It's also a good one to belt out in the car full volume @Anony18 which is what I did today! I'm in a weird place right now we're I feel great all day then in the evening feel horrendously sad. We haven't met - hi I'm Nooks. I'm pretty new here

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Hi @Former-Member 🤗

I literally fell asleep after I sent that. But have woken up suddenly an hr and half ago and have trouble going back sleep 😒😔

Well am here if you like talk about this weird place you are in or when you feel horrendously sad.

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I already SH .i broke my record of 2 months without it
Last night was a whirlpool of making plans of S then thoughts coming in of how selfish it would be to do myself in which brought me back to the plans and how it confirmed the way i feel about myself and my intentions and around and around it went

@Anony18 i never take your response as abandonnment


Im not beautiful and my scars eat at me everyday yet im stupid enough to make more. I am ugly and even if i try to change the outside the inside remains the same.

If i leave i feel selfish as the people on this thread which includes u 2 are important to me and i like to support you.
Sometimes when i see some certain people comment or a few people comment i feel very obliged to say nothing and step back as some people make me feel very very uncomfortable and make me think of the things ive done wrong and i dont think i can fix them and the thoughts surrounding it arent pleasant
I also know some people get extremely overwhelmed with to many people so if there's a few i step back until im tagged

@Anony18 @Former-Member
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