im back..... i think

Well take your time to try @outlander - and ensure you are ok with telling me whatever details you feel necessary. I will respect if you don't want to talk or alternatively you don't know how to explain.

I understand @outlander. Have been there. No pressure. Take your time and tell me when you gather your thoughts and find the words for it.

Its so hard to explain

I feel nauseous and really weird in my stomach. Its weird- like I should be doing something but im not . Like im missing something but I cant think what it is.
My side is still weirdly sore
all my muslces feel like achey but its a strange feeling.
Its a really odd feeling running through my veins- like electrical and energetic currents but its shaky at the same time
my whole body feels really weird and I dont know its hard to describe but I am trying to get it out.
I feel low and tired but at the same time not tired and wanting to do something but I can be bothered to do anything.

Ive got this really guilt feeling that I cant seem to push away

I dont know it just hard to explain.

i can tell you whats been going on at home abit too if you like. @Anony18

Sure tell me @outlander

It may be part of reason for your weird feeling. Sometimes your mentality and emotional state affects your physical state.

well it first started this morning i was feeling off but not like this... @Anony18

i did what i had to do through the day

but when i got home my mother was walking around the house and cleaning and doing what i usually do and she kept huffing and puffing like i should be doing something

i havent done anything around the house today at all which

im looking at online courses and their fees and i dont think ill be able to do anymore courses and theres a few that id like to do

i have a blood tests coming up which half the time i dont think i need and im too scared to go to

i get my results on tuesday from my nurse

i have my gp appointment on tuesday as well to again discuss medications

It sounds like a whole bunch of events that could be making you feel weird and possibly low @outlander

I could be wrong. But I know the feeling when my mum has an indirect go as if I do not do much around the house. It makes me feel like i am useless when in fact you are not. It also probably didn't help you want to study these courses but fees are a problem. Is there any funding you could seek to assist, even in one of those courses?

Blood tests are scary and you sound bit concern and maybe afraid to see what the results will come out as. I do hope the results are positive for your benefit.

yes i get and got that feeling too but i thought id be use to it buy now

ive been out all day and its very rare that im not at appointments and today i wasnt at them at all

i had an ok day which has been a very long time since ive had one of those.

no i can pay it off but 400 a go which is still heaps at the moment and the cheapest course id like to do is 730

i seriously dont want any more tests done @Anony18

@outlander I think we can never get use to it. I experienced many times before and I am still not use to it and I still get anxious about it.

Was having an ok day and not having alot of appointments making what seemed all weird?

It is alot of money alright. I had a think about my career and wanted to do a year course for education but it was way ex. Not that I didn't have the money but it was alot.

Have you questioned the doctor or nurse if those tests are necessary? Sometimes I feel they do tests on you when it is unnecessary.

Am off to drive to the cinema @outlander. Meeting random people to watch a dog's purpose. I promise you I be back my friend after it. Might try check in in between possibly. Hopefully @Former-Member @soul can accompany whilst you are feeling weird. But I promise I be back. I feel a bit bad leaving you like this....